Hidden Desire

Chapter 9

Silus perspective

I fall asleep with her arms. I wake up to the sunlight in my eyes, the bed feeling warm and I feel refreshed. I open my eyes to see her covered back. I swear she was naked when we went to sleep. She also seemed wet, as if she was standing in rain. I pull my arm around her waist and pull her towards me. "Good morning beauty." I whisper in her ear. She groans and yawns. "Its rude to wake a woman when she's sleeping." I laugh and wipe the wet drops off her face. "Why is your face and body wet?" 

"I took a shower and was too tired to dry myself." I laugh at her unusual laziness. I remember the tasks I have to do and decide to get up. "I have stuff to do so I've got to go. stay in bed, I'll see you later." I smile, kissing her on the cheek. I exit the room, putting on my shoes and walking out into the corridor. In see my brother walking up to his room and is out, "Damien, hey!" he turns around and smiles awkwardly. He looks soaked. 

"Where were you dude? You're soaked!" I joke with him. He laughs and pushes me. "I went out to search this morning for some herbs and it started raining. "You're so weird, you could've asked one of the maids." He nods and laughs. "Are you gonna find a wife soon cause you seem pretty alone dude." he shakes his head, frowning a little. "Marriage? I don't know dude. I did meet a girl though." I scoff excitedly.

"No fucking way, really?" I slap his shoulder. "Did you?" He nods and points at the hickeys on his neck. I clap for him, surprised my brother got some. "And all this time I thought you were more of a fuckboy than me." he laughs and pushes me, waving me off. "Ill talk to you later but I'm soaked right now. I nod and walk away. Finally my brother's found someone, he deserves some happiness. All his life I've been the main character so he deserves something of his own.

I've got to meet this girl, make sure she's good enough for my little brother. 

Adiras Perspective

I hope Silus doesn't notice that I am soaked but obviously he does. I tell him I took a shower and he leaves. I snuggle in my blankets, reminding me of the night I just had and the warmth of Damien I missed. His soft lustful touches and passionate kisses. I pull myself out of bed and get ready, putting on a flowy white dress. I make my way down stairs and get my whicker basket. I catch the chef looking at me. "Good morning Al." I say, he returns a smile and waves, taking the apple out of his mouth.

We ran out of herbs this morning for The doctor. I don't  have time to bring him some so do you mind gathering some? I nod, realising Damien is the doctor. I push the doors and say hello to the morning guard, bowing and rushing into the herb garden. I smell the flowers before putting them into my basket. carefully pi king out the best herbs of the plants. I look up to his room slightly hoping he's there but I see something else.

I drop my basket onto the ground as I stare into Damien's room. He's sitting on his desk without his shirt on and is looking out into the field. The sun makes his abs glisten, my face begins to turn bright red as memories flood back. Jesus he was hot. I pick up the basket and hurry back inside. My feet tumble and I land in the hands of Silus. "Hey, watch your feet." I get up quickly and look at him. "I'm sorry sire." I apologise before walking away. 

"Adira, why the hell are you calling me sire?" I stare at him. "You are the lord." I say nervously, wanting to get out of this conversation. "Anyway, my brother has met a woman and I want to meet him. I suggested we hold a ball and he can bring her then." I nod nervously, conflicted. "Sounds good." Silus grabbed the basket from me. "You're going to be my date." I sigh and nod, grabbing the basket back.

I move away, going up to Damien's room. I knock, hoping he is still shirtless but no my luck isn't that good. "Adira, what are you doing here?" I point to the basket with herbs. "I was told to pick you herbs and stuff." I smile, feeling his stare on me. He grabs the basket from me, "come in." he leads the way into his room. He places the herbs into the cabinet, organised in name of herbs. I watch as he put them away, focused and determined.

"Did you need anything else Adira?" he asked calmly. he hands the basket back and point to the door. "Please close the door on your way out, thanks." I feel confused. Why is he acting like I'm no one?" I make my way out of the door and close the door, I spend the rest of the day mopping and cleaning the bottom floor of the castle. Was I not the one he was in love with? At the end of the day I return to my room and flop onto the bed, ready to sleep. I snuggle in the covers and stare at the ceiling. 

I fall asleep to the sound of crickets and wind. 

"Sweetie, no one will treat you like an equal if you're a woman. Love is a lie, a bitter truth but the truth. You are too smart to fall in love."

"Mommy don't go, please."

"You have to be strong, don't be a weak little girl. you will make mommy proud won't you?"

"Yes mommy, I will make you proud."

I wake up sweaty, the memories of my mother haunt me in my dreams. I wonder what my life would be like if I didn't have her as my mother. Would I be dancing at balls and falling in love with many men? who knows. I just know I have a job to do and thinking about my past won't help me finish it. I glance outside the window, staring at the clouds, the way i wish I could sit on the clouds and watch over the world. What I would give to be a stupid, dumb girl who was oblivious to life and its tortuous ways.