Hidden Desire

Chapter 8

When I come out of the bathroom I see he is still staring at me. "Can I help you?" I ask. He smirks at me, "Come back to bed." I shake my head and start to put on underwear and a bra. "I have things to do." He scoffs and groans. "I'm the king, I choose what you do and I order you to come here and sleep with me." I stare at him and laugh. "I just slept with you." He smiles, and laughs. I have never heard him genuinely laugh.

I wander over to him and lay next to him. "Yay." he sounds like a small child. I kiss him on the head and pull my self into his warmth. I play with his hair as he falls asleep. I can't help but stare at him, he looks utterly peaceful when he's asleep. Oh how I wish I could just act like everything was fine. But I can't. Im here for a reason and I will not fall, into his trap of love.

An hour later when I'm sure he's asleep I sneak out and put on clothes. I rush down stairs and into the kitchen. I watch the moon glistening in the night sky, the night was so serene and bliss. The garden looked so peaceful and calming, I imagine myself laying on the grass as it rains, the cold refreshing rain washing away my problems, dissolving them into the soil. "Hey." I hear a familiar voice in the dark shadows. "Hey Damien." I say, speaking into the darkness. I watch as he drifts into the light. "You put on quite a show up there with my brother." I laugh, looking into his now brown eyes. "Did he realise you were faking it." 

I gulp. "What?" I question. "I know how you sound when you moan and that wasn't it. I laugh hoping he doesn't realise how nervous I am. "I don't known what you're talking about." He smiles and comes closer to me. "He was probably to distracted in the way he felt that he disregarded your pleasure." How did he know? I scoff, it was unbelievable. "And how would you know what's real and what isn't?" He laughs and pulls me into him, his hands wrapping around my waist. "It was a  good distraction you know. You're beauty and your amazing lying capability."

I swallow hard. I stare up at him and his calm eyes. He moves his hand up the back of my shirt and traces his fingers down my spine. I shiver as he starts to kiss my collar bone and my neck. He lifts me up onto the counter and puts his hand down my pants. "Damien." I warn. "You deserve to feel pleasure love." I breathe hard as he pushes two of his fingers inside me. His fingers are cold, his eyes stay on mine and I bite my lip. He lifts his other hand and pushes my mouth to his.

His mouth covered my moans as he pushed him fingers further inside. "Damien." I moaned into his ear. "Adira, don't do that." he said, his breathing becoming deeper. I push my head back, looking at the ceiling and then he pushes my chin down to face him. "Look at me Adira." I push my hips into his fingers, wanting more, more of him. "Damien." I begged. "Adira." he said sternly. "Don't do that. You know what that does to me." I smile and pull him towards me, gridding my front onto his as I kiss him. I feel him hard, pushing against me, he groans.

"Adira, I'm warning you." I look at him and his now golden eyes. "Damien please." I pleaded. "I wanna feel good, make me feel good."He stares at, he seemed different. It was teasing anymore. He pulled me towards him. "I can't do this Adira." I stared at him with sad eyes. "Damien." I moaned, knowing he was trying to control himself. "Adira, you don't want this." I pulled his face to mine. I stared at his lips, his lustful lips. I put his hand on my breast. He groaned, holding himself back as much as he could.

"Do I repulse you that much?" I say. Moving away from him, covering myself. with my arms. He scoffs and covers his forehead. "Am I really that disgusting to you Damien?" I ask angrily. He looks at me with a new found emotion. OH SHIT. he slowly strolls to me, his arms forcefully pulling me towards him. "REPULSE ME?" he beckons. "I am controlling myself Adira, you are too fucking tempting." I look up at his lips. I push myself towards him, closing any space between us. "Damien." I plead. He shakes his head but continues to look at me. "Make me feel good Damien." I moan.

He lets out a deep sigh and I realise what was going on. His erection was getting bigger. His size kinda scared me. What kinda monster is he? "Adira, I'm not going to hold back if you ask one more time." I smile pulling away from him, taking his hand into mine. I lead him out of the castle, opening the doors to the garden. I shush him and take him into the flower beds where no one would see us. "Adira why are we here?" I stared at him with lust as it started to rain. We laugh in sync and I pull him closer to me I kiss him lightly, hoping he kisses me back. 

"I don't want this to be meaningless sex." I flinch at his words. "You think me taking you out into my favourite place in the rain is going to mean meaningless sex?" I ask, hoping he catches my sarcasm. He chuckles, returning my kiss. I put my arms around his neck and we fall lightly into the grass. He kisses me all over, pulling off my clothes lightly and I unbutton his shirt. He continues to kiss me, it feels different from Silus. I smile as he spreads my legs apart to make an entrance for him.

"Are you sure?" He asks. I whisper in his ear. "Damien I only moan for you." he smirks as he pushed himself into mw gently. I gasp as he thrusts, my moans resonating through the garden. I kiss him, running my hands up and down his abs. "Damien." I moan into his ear, earning me a moan from him. I move my hips in sync with him . His fingers trace my thigh sending a shiver down my spine, his kisses rough and fast. He stared at me as I stared upwards towards the sky, his hand gripping my chin forcing me to look into his dark devilish eyes. "Damien." I say, this time more of a question. I trailed my hands on his back, scratching, digging my fingers nails into his skin every time he thrusted.His hair lied on top of his eye, I pushed it back, feelings the heat escaping his touch.

He pushes himself deeper into me making me gasp, panting for air as if he was taking it from me. Why did I feel like this. I am being weak. I am being what my mother warned me not to be. "Adira focus on me."A tear slipped down my cheek, his gentle finger sliding across my cheek wiping away the fear. "Adira." His tone was gentle, eyebrows furrowed in worry and his eyes focused on my expression. "Kiss me." I demand, smashing my lips into his, he was hesitant for a moment but pushed his tongue inside my mouth, searching for places he hadn't already tasted. "You taste so sweet." he groaned into my ear, he pulled my waist towards him, the rain splashing against our skin.

The cold rain felt good against the burning flame that erupted from us, moans disappearing into the depth of the dancing water. I felt a ball of heat grow in my body, spreading across, my legs feeling weak as he thrusted into me painfully slow. I felt our heat melt in each others as we released together, our foreheads touching as our breaths moulded into one, drifting into the cold. I lay on top of him. I giggle as the rain stops pouring, leaving us soaked. "Our luck huh." he laughs. 

I smile at me, my heart throbbing and my head cleared of all thoughts. "The suns coming up, you should probably get back to your room." I frown, the moment is ruined. I lift myself off of him and he hands me his suit jacket. I Start walking back when he grabs my arm. "Don't forget how It felt okay?" I look at him confused. "You deserve to feel happy and pleased. I feel my heart hurt, knowing the pain I would feel once returned to my room. I felt empty, cold after even a moment away from his touch.