Walk Through Fog

It Might be Real

Can it really be real if I feel it, see it, and smell it. That's what I think believing is, something that you have proof so you know that it can't just be myth you wish would come true. I never thought I would ever have someone I could share anything in the world with, but then I met her, she was perfect and beautiful. I know that I love her, but I know that she loves someone else to, but it can never be me that she loves. We're best friends, I guess I never knew that there could be such thing as a best friend this way. My other best friends never shared anything with me, never spoke to me, never even shared a secret with me. Bailee however shares whatever she wants with me. I don't love her in the way like i have crush on her and need to have sex with her 24-7, but that also isn't an appalling thought. The thing is, we met in the weirdest way possible, it was like we were meant to be best friends in that weird way that fate is on your side for once.

I was in the bookstore/coffee house like I always am on a normal Monday afternoon, studying the test that coming Friday. I never really had great friends because my parents got relocated a lot with their jobs, them being paleontologists and all, which sucks because they have to live in crummy areas like deserts and Australia, but then came along my new baby sister and they needed to settle down, so they chose Florida where they could dig whenever, at the digging sight by the dinosaur weird freak museum. I don't hate them for us moving around a lot, but there weren't many kids to play with in the middle of the desert by a hut filled with fossils that are probably worth nothing. So you can see why my new found best friend was a big change for me. Anyway I was just studying when this girl comes bursting in soaked head to toe from the pouring rain. She screams in excitement as she enters the storm when she feels the heat hit her face.

You could obviously tell it was raining from the windows plastered in rain and the thunder killing your eardrums every five minutes, but she walks right up to me smiles, takes a bite of my danish and says two words that changed my life, "It's raining." I probably laughed for a whole three minutes and all she did was stand there like the thing she just said wasn't hilarious, but then she smiles and says, "I'm Bailee." I smile back at her, "Alexa." We smile at each other for what feels like forever, but then she sits down and the friendship begins.

I guess you could say she made me who I am, but that would just boost her ego and we can't have that, now can we? We've done a lot of wild things together, but I think the times when we're there for each other are the most impacting. At one time she had this boyfriend who was the hottest guy in school, gorgeous head to toe and of course she had him wrapped around her little finger, he was perfect the most beautiful tan skin with perfect run-your-hands-through hair and you could touch it all day. He just happened to be my cousin, this is the story when she taught me how to hate him. He flirted with her the second he saw her, I tried to make him stop because he would probably steal her from me. He flirted with every girl, I've had to watch him flirt with a girl every single time I would hang out with him. He was practically an older brother the way he was so protective over me and he was the closest thing to a best friend I had except I couldn't go bra shopping with him. He would touch every single one. Mic is a great guy and for a really long time I thought him and Bai would get married.

They were inseparable, always together and I was always the third wheel, I just had to go with them to be the chaperon ordered by my mom. My mom and dad were his legal guardian ever since my mom's sister and her husband died when were little, when we first moved here. My little sister wasn't too happy though, she loved it just being us in our "bone house" that's what Syd calls it because Mom and Dad have so many artifacts sitting around. The worst part was I lost a cousin, a friend, and any trust for anyone I would ever meet again all in one day because it was the day that Bailee ran into my room sobbing because Mic did the one thing I never thought he would do to her, he cheated on her. I wish that he would've seen how great she was... just like I do... did.

I wish these could be the happiest story ever just filled with mine and Bailee's stories, but I guess there's more to life than just the past. We did some great things though in those four years we sent together, vacations in California, Paris, Australia. Any exotic place, you name it we went there, thanks to two nerdy diggers I call parents. We would party forever, all night just to see each other party. I guess she isn't gone forever, but when he broke her heart after dating her for three of the four years I knew her, I never saw her that heart broken and hurt. I would try to cheer her up everyday, I even tried to get them back together, but then I came to the conclusion that she was gone forever. She went into depression and when her mom committed suicide she went overboard and try to kill herself with a wrench. It got really bad after that.

Soon we were forced to put her in a mental hospital where no one can visit her. I cry a lot, wishing I could just get my best friend back, the only one I had, but she's gone, broken and I just want to see burst through my front door like she did every morning, drag me by the hand and out the door saying, "It's our Adventure, Girly!"

I just want that one more time.