Walk Through Fog

What?

Have you ever been somewhere so magical you didn't even know if it could exist?

Me neither. When ever I read a story, it can be this amazing life changing thing where someone died and finally sees the light! They're all filled with real love and this perfect guy, with no flaws and a shitty background. Why is that like that exactly? I'm pretty sure real life, it's just filled with fuck boys. I know this because I'm an eighth grade girl and have seen how guys can act in multiple scenarios, it doesn't matter their age, they all have one thing in common. Sex. Does that stop every girl in the school from liking a guy? Hell no.

People can date all they want, even if they are only in eighth grade. This is usually the worst time for every kid, so what they do is make everything inappropriate and call it funny. That's just part of growing up, puberty and bleeding for not being pregnant. Plus hormones, a lot of hormones. If you walk into a classroom you hear a mix of inappropriate jokes and yelling, it's something I can't wait to leave. Although I'm spewing off how much I hate it, I do it to, I'm just another fourteen year old that won't stop. It's the age of being assholes, little kids, learning your life, and the scariest part.

Even through all of this you have good friends and bad friends, ones that will hurt you without knowing and annoying people that think they are funny when they are really being disrespectful or mean. People say High School is the worst, others say Middle School, and some even say Elementary school. Wouldn't that eventually spark someones attention and someone will stop being prejudice. Bullies travel in packs and when your bullied you tend to become the bully, and it's a traveling cycle. Everyone's a hypocrite and school is the worst place because all it is, is being forced to learn. Sadly that's all people think when going to school, how shitty it is and how they can't wait to get out at the end of the day.

Nobody thinks about what could happen while they're there, amazing things, inside jokes, learning about amazing pasts, and new people. Everyone thinks of school as work, waking up early, and long days. That's true, but where would they be if they never went to school, everyone would be brainless with no friends. Everyone walks through life complaining and doesn't stop to see what they really have and how wonderful that can be. People can go through a lot even at our age and a lot of people can have bad back stories, but why can't we just enjoy life for one split second. In life there are terrible things in the world, but sometimes you have wonderful friends and it can be okay for five minutes and that's perfect. I won't say that I have hope for my generation because all they are doing are staring down at their phones and one day that has to stop, but can't I have hope when the whole classroom sings along to a song we grew up to and no ones video taping it?

I may only be in the eighth grade, but I've seen real love and you can fall into it as young as eight years old. The worst part is nowadays romantic stuff is "gay" and no guy would dare do it because it will make them look bad in front of their friends. I may be getting looked down at right now for being an eighth grader and not knowing anything and I'm the most naive person right now, but maybe I am. Maybe I'm so naive that I have no idea what it's like to see someone cry from a broken heart, but that isn't true. I never even said that person with the broken heart was my age, I wanted to run and hurt the person that could ever do that to them and I lost hope. You can lose hope in the quickest times and not see anything worth it, but the few moments I have at school make that go away.

Even out of school, but I wouldn't understand it, you learn and school helps that. Even if it isn't from the basic subjects, even if it has nothing to do with school itself. You can learn from the people around you and life lessons, life itself. I may look even more naive now, but think about it. Would you be anywhere without your past about school, or from the people you met from school. I know how this sounds, a fourteen year old is trying to talk to you about how your life is. I can't tell you anything about your life, it's your life. I just know what it's like, I'm just now beginning to see the world for how it really is. Yes, a lot is bad, but it's also amazing, even with all the bad. Even if it's the middle of the apocalypse there can be a rainbow and a moment of happiness.

I'm young, that's true, but when your young you need a second to look at the moment and stay young forever. Isn't that what every single one of your grandparents say. That's why everyday I take a moment to cherish the things I have and be lucky and think about my life. Everyday I try to act like I'm four for at least ten minutes, a lot of the time it's more than that because all I want is to go back and run through a sprinkler in a super small yard, but then it felt like miles. I was having fun and I should get that everyday, that's what I want to see. True, real smiles and ignorant people to stop. No one knows what is really happening in someone elses life, or how much they can influence that person.

Today, I tried to do that. I didn't say anything that would hurt someone and I took it all in. I stared into brown eyes, that were staring back and laughed with a girl that can ruin the best moments, but she's still a great friend. I'm glad I had that time. I got to see one thing today, that was happiness. The laughter, the beauty, and the chances people took. I'm just another naive girl, but that's the best thing to be. That's all you can wish at my age, to be naive and not see your future. For now, I'm still a kid.