Circle: The Love triange that made me crazy

circle fifteen

The nights and weeks have grew long for me. I kissed Zack yesterday and now he is avoiding me like the plague. The whole band is actually. I did not do anything. But I would be lying to myself if I said that. I cheated. Plain as day I did.

And there was no undoing it. What was done is done. Zack apparently moved on from Lilly. Now he has a new girlfriend. I don't care for her name. Or anything about her. I thought it would be our change but I guess I was wrong. He never comes around anymore

It's been nine weeks and I finally am going to be getting my phone back. I was not to happy about this. I didn't care and had no one to text to.

My mother gave me my phone back the next morning. She is still taking me to school. I don't care. I can think I guess. "Have a good day" she said as I was leaving. I said nothing. All around me there was couples. I was once one of them. But now, An outcast

I walked to my locker with my head down. They where all here already. Including Zack and his girlfriend. I watched as he placed his hand on her face as he did to me. I watched her smile at his touch. My heart broke.

There was nothing I could do

They saw me. Gave me a look. And continued what they where doing. I couldn't read Zack's face. For a second he looked sad, But it must have been my mind playing tricks on me. Because as soon as I walked away he kissed her.

I couldn't help but think that, it should have been me. But it wasn't. It never will be. I heard the bell ring as I was staring at my locker. I opened it, and pulled out my Books. I wiped my face not wanting to show my emotions. Doing that in this school could be bad.

I entered My algebra call. There he was. Sitting there with the biggest smile on his face. I couldn't help but let tears fall. There was nothing else left to do.

He noticed me and I turned away. I did not want him to see that. Not like he would care anyway. He never said anything to me the entire time. I felt as if there was a wall dividing us. And maybe there was one.

I was about to leave class when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I did not want to turn around. I did not want to come face to face with him.

"Brenna"  He said softly. I wanted to cry. I had to go to Biology. I was dreading that too. I was dreading almost every class. They where in almost all of them.

"Brenna, look at me" He pleaded with me.

I turned around and faced him. We stood in silence until the bell rang. The halls emptied and we where the only two there. I could not say anything, Nor did I want to. I began to leave to go to my next class. Zack stopped me

"Let me explain" He said. what was I supposed to do? not let him? That would be nice because of her but I did not care yet again. We stayed in the halls for the next ten minutes. Zack told me all about why he began dating Carly. Which was her name. Basically because she liked him. He did not like her. He liked me. Still

He left me go soon after. This was not over. As I thought. I wished it to be but Zack would not let it. I cannot drown in my sorrows and let it all sink in that I am alone. It will all have to wait just to hear Zack's story

I went to Biology late. Which was not like me. The teacher gave me a confused look as I walked in. I took me seat, next to Johnny. He glanced at me then back at my work. That was the only contact I had with him that day.

The school day ended later. It felt like it went so slow. But it didn't. I was happy when My mother picked me up. I would not have to deal with anyone. I moved my bangs out of my eyes and go in the car. The drive home was silent. 

I walked to my room and took a long nap. Only to be awakened by A tapping on my window. Zack was here. It was dark out. I let him in and he began to unreavel his tale.

When he was done. I fell into a deep sleep. Zack left to let me sleep.

I could have sworn he said "I love you" In my ears