Circle: The Love triange that made me crazy

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Nothing has happened since that night. And I could care less if something ever does happen again. Carly is still around Zack and it's not bothering me as bad as I thought it would have. It's been killing me. saying it does not bother me would make me lie to myself. I can see the pain in him and I now he feels the same

They all have been ignoring me since Me and Johnny broke up. Life has been different since then and I have been extremely lonely.  No matter how hard I fought it I could not  Get the feeling Of Zack away from me. It was impacted in my mind he would not go away.

Everything I went through with him was there. Like a light that would not shut off,

He came in my room every night. We always kissed. Neither him or I felt ashamed I wished he would make a move. But he never did. Maybe it's because of Carly. Maybe it's because of me.

I did not want to be the one to make the first move. It's not right. I did that with Travis and look how it all turned out. Maybe I'm afraid of the same thing happening to Zack if I make the first move

 It was nigh time again. Only a few more minutes until he would arrive. I was nervous. I was wanting him to be here already so I would not have to wait much longer, He probably did not feel anything for me, And I felt nothing for him.

I always wondered how he felt

I must have fell asleep because I did not see Zack come in. Nor did I hear him.

I woke up an hour later to see Zack sitting at my desk. The moonlight hit his face making me see him. He was so good looking

"Hey" I said. Zack looked surprised. He did not see me awake. I saw him smile. Again he looked so good doing that

"Hey" he said. I felt the bed shift and he was now sitting next to me I assumed

As muchas I wanted to kiss him I could not. There where Limitations. Something I could not cross. He moved close to me and wrapped his arms around me. He held me for some time

"I hate her already" Zack suddenly said. He was talking about Carly. I wondered why he hated her. Then I realized that Zack was only coming here to ease his pain. I bet he did not even like me. I did not want him to come here just so he could empty his soul and take advantage of me. I would not let him take advantage of me

"Oh" I said. I decided not to tell him about what was going on inside of my head.

"She cheated on me with a guy" He said. I turned to look at him. How could she do that? I asked myself. Thinking he would say more I remained quite

I realized I was becoming angry. I did not like the fact that Carly had cheated on Zack. I wondered if Carly meant anything to Zack. and If Zack meant anything to Carly. I bet not since she cheated

We stayed in scilence since he last spole. I did not say a word. Hopw could I?

I knew now that Zack did not like me. And that saddened me. Because I knew that I liked him and I found it unfair.

I guess it doesn't bother him. Or maybe it does. But that is a slim maybe

The night dragged on and Zack was ready to leave. He gave me a kiss on the lips. Then he was gone.

I stayed awake until the next morning