Circle: The Love triange that made me crazy

Circle twenty one

I did not want to do anything. I did not want to move to let Zack know that I was in my room. I wished I had stayed at Matt's s. my mom would have let me. As long as I went to school each day. And I went.  I remained silent in case Zack would move.

I wanted to believe that it was my mother in my room looking for something. Thinking it would ease my racing thoughts that Zack would be here.

I slowly began to move about my room. It seemed to me now that Zack was no longer here.  I felt like a prisoner in my own room. I was not afraid of Zack. I did not even care.

I turned my light on to grab some pjamas out of my dresser drawr.

"Brenna Is that you" My mom called from across the room

"Yeah" I called to her.

I wondered how Zack got in my room. I had locked my window when I woke up in the morning. Maybe my mom let him in and he Had remained in my room until I had gotten home? I knew he wanted to talk to me but I didn't think he would stalk me. I did not want to speak to him Not now anyway.

I knew Zack did not love me. And I did not love him. Afterall, He lead me on and I believed that he wanted to be with me.  He did make out with Charlotte right in front of me. But I guess that's the way men are. They can kiss any girl they want and think it was nothing at all. Women are different we need proof to know that a guy loves us. Not just him saying it.

I changed quickly into my pajamas and went in bed. After a while of not being able to fall asleep, I decided to do some homework that I had not done yet.

After a half hour of doing my homework, I decided to lie back down. My eyes where beginning to feel heavy and I began to get sleepy.

"Brenna"

I knew that voice. Zack. He was calling me. I guess he never left my room

"Brenna" He said again.

I did not do anything. I heard him walk in my room. He sat down and was not sitting on th e edge of my bed. It made me think if I should have let him in my room all those times. Maybe I should have been more stick with things then he wouldn't have just came in here on his own, I couldn't help but get angry at myself for doing all those things. But I couldn't help myself He lead me on.

"Brenna" Zack said again. He knew I would not answer him. from the light shining in my room from the moon, I could see that Zack was looking at me.

I wish I could have pulled my phone out of my pocket and text someone so they could get Zack away from me but I couldn't. Not without him seeing me. And I don't want that. Zack remained quite for a while. I guess he was waiting for me to answer him or acknowledge that he was in my room. Which I knew he was aware of.

I scratched my chin as I sat in my bed. I felt the bed shift again ans Zack had gotten up. He was walking towards my door. Part of me wanted to get up and telling him I was here and that I wanted to hear every word in this head, But then there was another part that made me think of Johnny. And I did not want to get up and face Zack and hear a lie out of his mouth that would lure me back into him again, I could not take the pain of breaking up with Johnny. I would not let Zack back in.

Instead of him leaving , Zack sat down with his back against the wall.  I knew I would retreat the decision later. I walked over to him and sat in front of him. Zack could tell I was here. The light from the moon lite up my face.

"Brenna" He said. I took his hand to let him know I was there

"I'm here Zack" I said softly. he smiled and moved closer to me, I wanted to smile but something held me back. I couldn't be happy sitting next to Zack.

Zack touched my cheek and turned toward me

:I;m sorry you had to see that the other day: He said

I did nothing. I did not want to hear it. Before I could react, Zack's lips where on mine. His lips where warm and I found myself Kissing him back. I could not stop myself from what I was doing. I grabbed the let side of his face as he grabbed my right. Zack slipped his tongue in my mouth. A moan escaped me as he did so. I did not want this to continue. But I could not pull away. Zack pulled me close to him.  I felt myself wanting more. But I fought it off as hard as I could. I pulled away gasping for air. Zack looked at me and said nothing. He had to leave.

"Go" I said flatly

"Why" He asked. I knew what he wanted and he would not get it from me. I would not loose what I had with Johnny..

Zack kissed my cheek and then my lips again. He slipped his tongue in my mouth again and this time he was on top of me. I could not stop him. It felt almost right Zack's hand traveled up my shirt and to the bottom of my bra. I could not let him do this. I tried to pull him away from me. He un clipped my bra and kissed me more. His lips moved to my neck. This hand to end. But why was I kissing him back. I thought

He finally get to and I re clipped my bra. He had to go.

"I love you Brenna' He said. Zack helped me up and walked me back to my bed. He gave me a kiss before he disappeared out into the night.

The only thought I wanted to remember was Johnny. I wish that all just happened with him. I remember falling asleep that night and crying myself into a silent sleep