Circle: The Love triange that made me crazy

Circle fourteen

School finally ended. It felt like the longest day ever. I climbed into my mothers car wanting to do anything but rest.  Nothing happened today.

 My mother continued to nag about school and how important it was to get involved with after school activities. She thinks I have to get in one. I can possibly get Johnny or Zack to stay after with me then. At least I could spend time with Zack. I thought, I knew I had to get Zack out of my head. But I was finding it impossible.

The rest of the way home was silent.  I went upstairs to my room. Some rest should do me some good. When I opened my door I found both Zack and Johnny standing there waiting for me. By the looks of Zack's expression I could tell he was angry at something, Johnny had the same look. What happened I asked my self

"Hey guys" I said nervously. I went over to my desk to sit down. Something was telling me I was not going to like what was about to take place.

They said nothing. That's a weird greeting I thought.

Zack muttered something and left the room.  He wouldn't even look at me. Johnny cleared his throat so I could hear him. He was about to say something, I never saw them angry. I wondered what happened, My eyes widened. I told Brian about me  kissing Zack! How could he tell Johnny. He promised.

I looked back over at Johnny, who was now on my bed with his head down. All i wanted to do was cry. He looks so upset. I never wanted to hurt him. I should defend myself But I don't want to throw Zack under the bus. But I had no choice

"I heard you kissed him" He said silently. Guilt began to wash over me. I could feel the tears in my eyes

"I'm sorry" I managed to say. The tears fell from my eyes.

Johnny reminded quite a little bit longer.  I went over to sit near him.

"How could you" he said coldly. It stung like hell. I know I shouldn't have done this, I knew it was wrong. Now I hurt them both. Now I'll never be able to forgive myself. But how. How did Johnny know. I wondered if Zack told him because he was guilty. And what was Zack mad at? I began to realize that maybe it was not Brian that could have done this.

I whipped my face with my hand. I caught Johnny looking at me from the Conner of my  eye. His facial expression hurt me deeply. He was so sweet and so kind. And I wondered why I had done this. Why I had Kissed Zack in the first place. I cam up with no answers. Only more questions

"Brenna, How could you do this" He asked again. I didn't know what to say. I knew I had no answer for him. His question would remain un answered. I looked at him with tears in my eyes. He placed his hand on my cheek.

"I'm sorry" I whispered.

Johnny kissed my forehead and left the room. I knew what this meant.

I knew we where over.

He didn't deserve me, And I didn't deserve someone like Johnny. He was a great guy, And I had to go and ruin it all. I was just like Travis. Maybe more like him then I would have liked, He still tries to contact me, But it will never be. I could never go back to him again. How could I trust him? Then again how could Johnny trust me? I did cheat. I did kiss Zack. I never meant for it to go this far,

I found myself curled up in a ball for a long tine after Johnny left, I began to feel alone. and how I did when Travis left me. I did not want to bother with anyone for a long time. How could I let this happen? why did I let this happen? The answers will never be known,

I heard someone knocking on my window late that night. I turned over and saw Zack trying to look in, I didn't want to know what he wanted, He continued to knock. I know he saw me so I had to open the window. He climbed in and sat on the end of the bed

"I'm sorry" I managed to say. I didn't know what to say. Or if he would even forgive me.

He placed his hand on my cheek and looked at me. His green eyes shown in the moonlight. He looked handsome. Lilly was lucky I thought. He pulled me into his lap and rocked me like a baby. We said nothing and the silence seemed peaceful.

I found myself getting more sleepy with every rock. Zack stroked my face and I soon was falling into a peaceful sleep.

The sun woke me the next morning, It had to be noonish. Zack was still here. He was looking at me. I guess he was waiting for me to wake up.

"Morning" I said groggily

"Morning" He said. we sat in silence for a while. I was glad it was Saturday.  My mother must have already gone to work. How did she not see Zack in my room when she came in to say goodbye? I didn't even want to know

"what should we do today" He asked snapping me back into reality

"Um, I don't know. Stay home under the covers"  I said. It was already hitting me that I was no longer with Johnny. And it hurt. It hurt bad Zack sensed that I was not in the mood to do much. He sat back down with his head down.

I walked to go take a shower. Zack noticed I was moving someplace and stood up "where you going" he asked

"Shower" I said.  He pulled me back so  I was facing him. He looked even better looking in the morning then at night. I felt myself Begin to get nervous. I had to stop all these feelings and try to get back to Johnny. But it was impossible to fight. Zack's eyes met mine. I could not pull away or fight this any longer. Lilly began to come into my mind. I wonder if Zack would cheat on her. Or I wonder if she would try to get to Johnny. Just the thought made me cringe

Zack began to move closer to me. I moved closer as well. Our lips was so close we where mileometers away from one another. The feeling of this I thought would never come. It seemed he wanted to kiss me as much as I wanted to kiss him

I brushed my lips against Zack's. He deepened the kiss as I kissed back. He lips where so perfect fitting into mine, I never wanted this moment to go away. We continued to kiss a bit longer. Something made me want to go farther but I stopped myself before my actions took over.

We pulled apart not long after. Zack pressed his forehead against mine.

"Is it safe to say I can kiss you whenever I want" He asked me while moving a strand of hair from my face

"Yes" I answered. He kissed me again and let me go about my business.

I think this is the start of something big