Bad Boy Kisses |BWWM

chap 10

You don't realize reality untill after the things start happening.
You loose people faster than you can gain them.

Am I bad friend? What's wrong with me. Is it them to blame?

Maybe I shouldn't go...... life is trying to teach me a lesson. I don't always have to be a follower.

Maybe talia will have more fun now that her and paula are alone together. This was probably on purpose.

I can't complain. It's already happened, they left. Its been a week since everything happened. I can only be mad at myself. I can only blame myself and the world.

But not yet. It isn't the worlds fault, its everyone's fault because everyone takes part in things. Maybe I was just not observing well enough.

This is stressing me out. How could I let them down? They are probably disappointed in me.

I'm laying in my bed staring at the ceiling overthinking. Nobody is home and were off of school all week. The snow came in and it's hard to drive anywhere.

My alarm goes off, I look to the left and throw my hand down on the off button. I sit up and fix my bonnet and take the covers off of me.

I stretch and slip my slippers on. Usually I take a walk before a shower but I decided to shower first for some reason.

Once I got out I put on my black puffer jacket, ugg boots and a scarf. I threw my braids in a sloppy bun and headed to the kitchen. I grabbed my phone off the counter and to my surprise we still had bananas.

I grabbed a banana and ate that before I ran outside to jump in the snow.

I never felt more happy, I love the snow it's just so pretty. It makes me feel so good inside. Once I had my fun I walked myself to the park down the street.

I'm shivering in my boots, my hands are so dry and cold. I might be loosing blood to my fingers. I laugh to myself and kept walking. The sun was bright and it glistened on the snow.

The world looked like a happier place with snow, it also made me a happier person. I felt amazing this morning, nothing could stop me.

I sat on the bench and started snapping photo of the blujays and red robins that are flying from tree to tree. I also watched the boys play soccer on the nearby soccer team that played across the park.

Once I got up front he bench I could've sworn I heard someone yell malcom.

It didn't concern me because many people could have that name but that didn't stop me from turning around to see my boyfriend with another girl.

My heart dropped all the way to my feet, I couldn't even belive my eyes.

I mean we haven't been dating for long but the sight of him blew me away.

They looked like such a great couple, he actually looked in love. I don't think he has ever looked at me like that before. The smile on his face made me even more sad. He looked happier with her than any other girl he has ever been with.

I can't even be mad, if he doesn't like me anymore than I cant force him to. I just wish he would've told me before.

I took the Polaroid of us out of my phone case and walked myself over to his table with his new girlfriend.

Once I stepped onto the pavement he turned my way and his face froze. I tried not to cry, I held it in. I place the Polaroid into the palm of his hand and began to walk away. The girl happened to be upset with what I have done.

She immediately walked off and flicked malcom off.

I heard malcom run to me and apologize.

"Sama I'm sorry can I explain?"

"Malcom she is very pretty. Youknow you guys looked like a really good couple. The way you looked at her made me blush."
I had a break in my voice.

"Sama, why did you give me the picture back?"
He sounded like he was faking his sadness.

"Hey malc I've gotta get going, I was supposed to walk here and go home. Ims sorry if your date ran off, tell her I was just a close friend of yours" I started walked fast

From afar malcom screamed "SAMA PLEASE, I NEED TO EXPLAIN. YOUR ALL I EVER WANTED I CAN'T LOOSE YOU YET. I WON'T EVER TALK TO ANOTHER GIRL AGAIN IM SORRY"

I burst into tears and ran home. I threw my jackets onto the floor and ran to my room. I don't know if I hate him or just don't want to talk him for the moment.

I put my phone on the desk and began ringing. I didn't even have to look at it to know who it was. I grabbed an empty box from my closet and began putting malcoms things into it. I put all his sweatshirts, headbands, bracelets I made for him and pictures of us.

I began crying and crying untill my eyes burned. I taped the box up and picked it up and took it to the livingroom. I wrote his name onto it and grabbed my dad's keys and drive to his house.

I got out the car and his older brother opened the door.

"Hey sama what's this?"
He looked curious.

"Just give this to malcom." I even sounded like I was crying. My eyes were blood red.

"Sama come in malc's not here right now" he grabbed me arm and pulled my into the livingroom.
I sat in silence and began to sobb again.

"Are you hungry?" He asked

"No thank you" I smiled at him.

Malc's brother is 19 and he is very handsome like malcom. They do look a lot alike but you can tell the difference.

He just stared into my eyes with the most saddest face. "Sama if you want to talk we can anytime, I will always be here. I know we aren't close but that doesn't me we can't talk."

He stood up and hugged me right when malcom came in. Malcom dropped his coat and shoes and ran to me.

Jason pulled me tighter into his arms and would'nt let malcom touch me.

"Malcom she doesn't want a guy who's gonna make her cry so just beat it"

"Who the fuck are you talking to?" Malcom scolded Jason

"I'm talking to you and leave her ALONE" he looked mad.

Its my fault their fighting, I should've left when I could.

I pushed jason away and walked to the door. Jason walked me to my car and hugged me again. His hands rapped around my waist tightly and I watched as malcom peered through the window in anger.

After he let me go and watched me drive off, I finally arrived home to my parents yelling at eachother for no reason again.