Second Chance

Moving In

The world came crashing down on me and I could not breathe. Explosion took place in my stomach and I felt like I was floating. It was like I was falling for John all over again. His lips were my drug, putting a spell on me, mesmerizing me. His love, so familiar, yet so new to me – it was a brand new start for him, but not for me.
His passion was drowning me. I could not help but kissed back.
We just kept kissing in the snow in the middle of the street and it was like time had stopped and everything that mattered was this person before me, who I had loved once. And now the feeling was back again. Everything in the past – or in the future, as in his view – did not matter anymore. His coldness towards me was non-existent now. I loved him, and he loved me. End of story.
At last we pulled away from each other and John pecked my lips once more before releasing my whole body but my hands. He held them in his and stared deeply into my eyes.
“(Yn),” he said in a faint voice, “I – I – that’s amazing.”
I nodded in agreement, face flushed from the excitement.
“I love you (Yn),” John suddenly blurted out after a moment of silence, “On the first day that we met I already found you very charming and attractive – and I fall for you harder and harder day by day. You’re honestly the kindest and sweetest girl in the whole wide world. I’ve never felt this way about a person and now I just can’t keep it in anymore. I have to let you know.”
Those words sent butterflies in my stomach wild and I smiled back, “John,” I said, “I love you too. You’re a really caring person and you’re really funny, and I love you loads.” Yes, standing in front of me was the John that I had fallen hard for before. He was the old John. And I loved him so much.
John’s eyes lit up, “So… Would you be my girlfriend?”
I leaned forward and breathed on his lips, “Yes,” and I kissed him lightly.
John grinned at me and looked at me like he had just won the first prize. I grinned back, and suddenly out of the corner of my eye I saw Edward returning.
I turned my head and Edward was glancing back and forth from John to me, and he came to a halt next to us. I guessed he could tell what had happened as John and I were still holding each other’s hands but he was having a broad smile on his face.
“Edward,” John wrapped an arm around my waist and turned to Edward, “I’d like you to meet my girlfriend.”
“Oh my God John you did it!” Edward said happily and punched his brother on the arm.
“Yeah,” John said and I looked up to see him wink at Edward.
I was studying Edward’s face closely all the while. And I could tell that beneath his happy appearance, he was actually hurting inside. I knew the truth because I was from the future. I felt so bad but I just could not resist John – after all, that was why I was John’s girlfriend back in my previous world. I did love him even though I also loved Edward now.

A few months later John convinced me to move in with them. I agreed as that was what I did before – and this time I knew what I should do to avoid arguments. I knew I was too clingy to John before. I should have given him more personal space. And now he loved me for that.
But living with Edward was a new challenge. He was the same old caring and sensitive Edward, yes, but last time I did not really know that deep down I also loved Edward in the way that I loved John. And now I did. And although Edward did not show that he also loved me in that sense, I still knew. He would sometimes get so distant when he saw John and I being affectionate towards each other. Like he was trying to block everything out. And this broke my heart.
I sometimes doubted that if this second chance was meant for me not to interfere with the twins’ lives. Maybe God wanted to be fair to them and gave them a chance to live peacefully without my existence. Maybe I should not have gone to the park and find them.
But what was done was done. There was no turning back this time. I could not be given a third chance, could I?
So now I just had to deal with it. I wanted to run away but I could not bring myself to do so and I knew this act would also hurt the twins. All I could do was to see how things go.
The good point was that John and I argued much less now. This was a change.

I woke up to the blinding sunlight pouring into the room and I stretched. But then I realized someone was holding me.
I looked to the side and saw John’s angelic face.
“Morning love,” John smiled and whispered.
“Morning,” I smiled back and John kissed my forehead.
“Okay so now that you’re up, I can go out to get some stuff from the shops,” John said and I realized that he was fully clothed now, “And Edward will be here to keep you company. Don’t miss me to much.”
“Alright,” I said, “But why did you have to wait for me to wake up?” it was a Saturday, and usually I would sleep in. I was up exceptionally early today.
“Because I want to be the first thing you see when you wake up,” John said cheekily.
“Awww!” I smiled and pecked his lips. Then he got out of the bed and said goodbye to me before closing the bedroom door behind him.
I stayed in bed, closing my eyes happily. I realized John was more attached to me than the previous time. Maybe I was right about giving him space. And just because I was being too attached to him I got the three of us into troubles as that was what caused the argument.
So eventually I got out of bed and made myself presentable. I walked down the stairs to the kitchen to make myself breakfast and I could not find Edward in there.
I was making tea and was waiting for the water to boil. I leaned my back against the counter and I heard footsteps coming towards the kitchen. It must be Edward.
A couple of seconds later Edward came into view. In only his boxers. Oh my God. What?
Edward also looked startled to see me here. I tried not to look down but I was blushing majorly.
“I’m so sorry (Yn),” Edward had frozen in the doorway, “I didn’t know you didn’t go out with John.”
“It’s okay,” I giggled at his shocked expression, “And actually I don’t mind.”
Edward chuckled and said, “You sure? I’m too lazy to go up and put on some clothes maybe I’ll do it after my breakfast.”
I laughed, “I honestly don’t mind,”
“Okay,” Edward said and came forward. The water was ready and I reached for a mug and apparently Edward was after a mug too. Our hands met and I felt current rushing through my veins, spreading all over my body from the place where Edward’s skin touched mine. Sparks began to fly in my stomach.
I looked up at Edward and he was also looking at me with a deep expression. I quickly withdrew my hand, embarrassed, “Sorry,” I mumbled.
Edward recovered after a second or two and continued his action. “Why are you apologizing?” Edward raised an eyebrow, amused. He grabbed a mug and I grabbed one after him.
“I don’t know,” I muttered, still had not completely recovered from the electrical-like shock.
Edward laughed softly and fixed his own breakfast.
So later Edward and I were eating on the sofa and we were having a great time chatting. He was actually funny like John but he sometimes just seemed quieter due to John and my relationship.
And during our conversation, I could not help but glanced at his toned body occasionally. He also had a fit body like John and I had the urge to touch it. But I could not. No matter how much I loved him and he appeared to love me too. I had chosen John, and I could not have any other thoughts on Edward now. But I felt really bad about the whole situation.
It seemed like this second chance was not that good. It was messing things up. My mind was also a mess right now. What had I done to the twins? Loving two people at the same time and I was hurting Edward.