Second Chance

Home Alone

I cleaned myself and went through my morning – yes, it was still morning, not noon yet – routine before going downstairs. On my way I could smell something delicious sizzling in the kitchen.
I followed the scent and found Edward making breakfast. He had just finished cooking and was putting the food onto two plates.
“Morning Edward,” I smiled at him as he turned around.
“Morning (Yn),” he smiled back after a slight pause, “Good timing, I’ve just finished cooking for us!” he placed the plates onto the table and we sat down to have our breakfast.
“Thanks for making me breakfast,” I said, “And how did you know I was going to wake up?”
He shrugged, “You wake up at around this time all the time, after you have quitted your job – and I’ve figured out your routine,”
So when I had moved in with the twins, John made me quit my job because he knew I hated my job as it was very demanding and he said he would take care of me.
And now I could not have felt any guiltier. Edward was always paying attention to be, caring for me and everything like he was my boyfriend – but he was not.
“So… What are you up to today?” I asked, attempting to change the topic. I really did not know how I would spend my day, as John would not be back until late evening.
“Nothing much, just hanging around with you,” he smiled. His smile was angelic. Just like his brother’s. They were both like angels.
We talked some more and at last we had finished our breakfast. I helped Edward cleaned up and we got comfy on the sofa.
“What should we do now…” Edward trailed off, looking around the house.
“Hmm,” I said, deep in thought, “What about watching some movies?”
“Sure,” he said, and I could tell he liked the idea. He stood up and went over to take out the box of DVDs.
“What kind of movie should we watch?” Edward asked, flipping through the movies on the floor. I got down from the sofa to join him.
“Up to you,” I said.
“Well, I’d say this one,” he pulled out a DVD and showed it to me – it was a horror movie. And it looked exceptionally horrific.
I gulped, “Can we perhaps watch something more relaxing?”
“But you said I can choose,” Edward smirked cheekily at me, “You can’t possibly take back your words now.”
“But—” I protested.
“We’re going to watch this,” Edward ignored me and went over to play the movie and closed the curtains. I got back onto the sofa, curling into a ball grumpily.
Edward chuckled when he turned around and saw that I was mad. He knew I was not really mad though, so he sat down next to me. I simply ignored him.
“Aww, come on,” Edward said after a while as the movie was beginning to start, “Next time you can choose, okay?”
“Whatever,” I mumbled, pulling my knees closer to my body.
“Hey,” he grabbed my head and turned it around so I was looking at him, “Smile!” he used his thumbs to make the corners of my mouth go up.
I tried my best not to giggle, but I failed miserably. And we even ended up laughing.
So now we were watching the movie, and to be honest I was really scared. I was not a big fan of horror movies.
And what was even worse was that it just kept getting scarier and scarier. I was only looking at the screen through the gaps between my fingers and Edward laughed softly at me. I did not get how he could not be scared.
“AHHH!” all of a sudden this ghostly figure popped up on the screen and I screamed. I jumped in my seat and Edward howled with laughter.
“What are you laughing at?” I snapped my head to look at Edward, and he just kept laughing.
“You’re too cute,” he said. I was dying a little inside.
“Shut up,” even though I was kind of singing inside, I pretended that I was pissed. I had completely ignored the movie and I tickled Edward.
“Oh gosh STOP (YN) STOP!” Edward yelled between giggles. He was trying to push me away but I was using all my strength to sit on him. We were sort of fighting on the sofa now and suddenly I toppled to the side because Edward was pushing me, and I landed on the floor with Edward beside me.
“You—” I was about to say something when an ear-piercing scream was heard. It was from the TV and I looked at it and I instantly regretted it. It was showing something extremely frightening and disgusting.
“OH MY GOD,” I shouted and rolled onto my side to snuggle into Edward’s chest. I almost had a heart attack looking at that scene.
I heard Edward laugh again and he put his arm around me to hold me there.
I kept hearing screams from the TV and I dared not to move. After a while Edward broke the silence between us, “Are you going to move back onto the sofa? The floor isn’t comfy; my arm hurts,”
I realized I was lying on the arm which Edward had wrapped around me, so it was sandwiched between me and the hard floor board.
“Whoops,” I said, and got onto the sofa, but did not return my gaze back to the TV.
Edward sat down next to me again and he wrapped his arm around me again and I snuggled into his body like before.
“Can we stop playing this movie?” I moaned into his shirt.
“Nope,” Edward said happily, clearly enjoying, “I want to watch it.”
I groaned, and he chuckled.
So for the rest of the movie, I kept my position next to Edward, body tensed from the tension from the movie. Even though I was not watching I could still hear the sounds.
But eventually I fell asleep. Towards the end of the movie there was not any screaming, so I had relaxed and fell asleep. When I woke up, the room was completely silent except Edward and my breathing. And Edward’s heartbeat. My head was placed near his chest and I could hear his steady heartbeat.
Edward did not know I had woken up, and I could feel his hand stroking my back gently.
I looked up at him and that was when he realized I was conscious. He quickly stopped his moving hand and composed himself, but I could catch a glimpse of his previous expression. He was staring at me lovingly. And I felt guilt washing through my body again.
Still, I loved John and I could not do anything about this situation.
“Hey,” he smiled down at me.
“How long have I been out cold?” I asked.
“I don’t really know,” he shrugged, “I don’t know when you started to fall asleep. But the movie has ended like half an hour ago.”
Why did I keep falling asleep in Edward’s arms? Was he giving me the sense of safety that I would always be so comfortable in his arms and fall asleep? And because it felt right? I had never fallen asleep in any other boys’ arms except John. And now Edward too.
“Sorry for keeping you in the same position for so long,” I mumbled, sitting up straight again. Edward retrieved his arm around me.
“It’s okay,” he grinned at me. He seemed really happy now.
But I knew this happiness could not last long. I should not let him have this feeling around me when he could not have me. I could not let him get this attached to me because he would then never find his own true love. Although the thought of him being someone else’s annoyed me.
But what else could I do? I could not possibly leave, as I had mentioned before. I could not bear the idea of leaving them and I could not hurt both of them.
“I – I’m still feeling sleepy, maybe I should go up and nap for a while,” I got up and smiled at Edward briefly. I thought I needed time to calm down and think things over.
“Oh, okay,” Edward said, standing up too, “I’ll go write some songs for a bit too. We’ve got this half-finished song waiting to be finished off.”
“Make sure you let me be the first one to hear it, okay?” I said.
“Sure,” he flashed his pearly whites at me.