𝙨𝙤𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙙 -𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘬𝘶 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘺𝘢

𝖙𝖜𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖞-𝖙𝖍𝖗𝖊𝖊

"You didn't leave." He mumbled, hunched over on the edge of the bed. I lifted myself, covering my body with the blanket.

We both watched as the sun began to peer in through the sheer curtains.

"You didn't sleep?" I asked, hesitating to reach out to him. He shook his head. "How could I sleep if the girl I'm starting to love wants to leave me the second I close my eyes." He sighed out.

He smothered his face in his hands and sighed deeply again. "Midoriya, I'm sorry." I whispered. "There's nothing you can do at this point. I've done too much for them to leave me alone. This only ends one way. How could you be with a villain..."

"Stop saying that. I thought you were gonna stay. Were you waiting for me to go to sleep so that you could leave again?" He breathed out. "I followed you last night. I saw everything."

"Why'd you follow me!" My voice was rising without me realizing it. "I heard you on the phone, and my curiosity got the best of me. I wanted to make sure you were okay."

He sighed deeply again and spoke suddenly. "Despite that, you're not a bad person! You're just not!" He followed suit and his voice rose as well. "Denying it doesn't make it go away! You can't possibly expect the both of us to be together without any problems! You saw what I did last night! The sick part of it is that I enjoyed it. Sadness and anger surfaced again, and I did that!"

He fell silent as I stared at him with crazy eyes.

"I enjoyed it. While it was happening, all I thought about was how good it felt to rerelease my stress! I'm sick! I'm awful! I think about it now, and I'm overridden with guilt. There's nothing I can do anymore! I'm not good to be in your world!"

I was getting frustrated not only with him being ignorant but with myself.

"You had no choice! They tried to kill you! It was self-defense. We can explain that to anyone. Y/N, you can't just leave whenever things get tough."

He's not convincing me, and he knows that. He's just trying to convince himself.

"Explain that to the Chief of Police then." He lifted his face and stared at me wide-eyed. "Yeah, you see why I want to leave? No one wants me here! The people who are called heroes want me dead! Villains want me dead! There's nowhere for me to be!"

I started to overwhelm myself with all these thoughts. I feel so alone.

In a world where one is supposed to choose sides, how can I even think about choosing one when both don't want me.

"I want you. I need you! Be on my side! I don't care what they want! I want you here! Here with me and me only!" He sounded so desperate his eyes were glossy again.

"It's not good for the future number 1 hero to be with a villain, Midoriya."

His eyes traced my face, desperately looking for an answer. "Y/N...please." He gripped the bedsheets so tightly. The veins in his scarred hands were popping out. "Every time I think I can finally love you without guilt or love you without being scared, someone's gonna rip you away. You pull something that makes me scared. I don't want you to go."

Without realizing it, he was talking to a blank wall. My mind was already made up...

"They'll come for me soon enough." Tears wanted to escape my eyes. "It's alright, Midoriya. I'm okay with whatever happens." I placed my hand over his. I tried to smile, but it never happened. "Go be the number 1 hero, okay?"

I moved his face towards my own and planted a weak kiss on his cheek. I got up from the bed and began to gather my things once again. I'd see him from the corner of my eye. His body was dead. He was stuck in the same position I left him in.

I felt my body start to hollow out. The thoughts that were bombarding my head went silent. Every movement I made didn't feel like my own. This numb feeling started at the pit of my stomach and crawled it's up to my throat. Making me feel sick.

I gave him one last look, but he still hadn't moved.

A warm tear fell from my face. I bit my lip back and left the dorm room without looking back at it.

I walked to the entrance of UA and looked back at it. I smiled at the sight. This is where everything began and coincidently, where everything is ending.

A bottomless pit in my stomach was eating me up. The tension in my throat kept building up, and my eyes were burning.

It just seemed better this way. Despite this aching everywhere, I think it will be okay.

"Boss, it's her!" One of the officers fell out of his seat, getting the Cheif.

"What a surprise." He barked out. "You seem different."

"I just want to turn myself in." I held out my wrists. "I don't know what you people do after this, but I don't care. I don't care anymore."

He made a "tch" noise, and a second later, chains were wrapped all around me. They pinched my wrists, ankles, and neck.

"Was all this necessary. I turned myself in." I said with hollow words. He shrugged, "Villains don't get to make requests. I don't like you very much either."

He threw me into a dark room. His shadowed body loomed over me. "Trash." He spat at me and shut the steel door with all his might.

My body collapsed on itself.

I assume this is how people go insane—this static in the air. The only mood filling this small room was the negative ones clouding your mind. Not an inch of sunlight was shining in.

The minutes were starting to feel like hours. Hours felt like days. There wasn't a clock, a table, a chair, or anything in this room. It was just me and my harrowing thoughts.

That sinking, bottomless pit that was eating at me only grew greater as time passed.

I shouldn't complain.

I am a villain, after all.

Right?

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author here! - and that's how this story ends.

nah im jp haha. it's definitely not over but it kinda feels like it is yk? so...

THIS MAYYYYY be the last update for a little while - maybe that's a HUGE maybe - idk if i want this to end happy or not...

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