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Esther's mother brings her to Doctor Gordon's private facility for her first electroconvulsive treatment. Though the first floor looks like a normal house, Esther notices that most of the people there are motionless. Upstairs, things look more clinical, and the windows are barred. Esther is fully conscious for her treatment, which feels exactly like an extended electric shock and accomplishes nothing. It reminds her of the time she electrocuted herself when moving her father's lamp. She vows never to come back for another treatment, which Mrs. Greenwood interprets to mean that Esther feels better.

Later, Esther experiments with suicide by cutting her leg with a razor but abandons this plan. She takes a bus to the beach by the Deer Island prison. She sits there for hours thinking about drowning herself in the ocean. At dusk, she finds the ocean water is so cold that she cannot make herself walk into it.





 At dusk, she finds the ocean water is so cold that she cannot make herself walk into it

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