The one where they're falling apart

The One With The Breakdown

TW: Mention of miscarriage. Also I'm not a doctor so if this isn't medically accurate please don't hate me.
"I'm sorry"
Ross jumped at the sound of Rachel's voice.
"F-for what?"
"I-I lost the baby"
Tears started to pour from her eyes staining her face once again.
"I'll be back in a minute" Ross left the room in search for his sister he couldn't do this right now it was to my much. He hoped that she hadn't left the hospital yet and was still in the waiting room. Rachel on the other hand was having a complete breakdown sobbing into the pillow of the bed while still clutching her stomach.
"How could I have let this happen"
In the waiting room.
"Monica"
"Ross, how is she?"
"I think you should go see her"
"I-I don't think that such a good idea"
"Mon please she needs someone right now and I...I just can't be in there with her...Please Mon"
She stood up and looked at Chandler who gave her a reassuring smile. She walked down the hall of the hospital dreading what she about to see. Monica had never experienced a miscarriage herself she had never felt the pain that Rachel was feeling. She began to think back to when she told Rachel that she couldn't conceive a child, how she sat there for hours comforting her helping her lay out her options. Now she had to be that person. She had to go in there and hold Rachel in her arms telling her that everything will work out. Monica stood outside the hospital room and took a deep breathe before opening the door.
"Rach"
Rachel didn't even flinch at sound of Monica's voice. She was still clutching her stomach while staring at the wall, tears rolling down her face.
"Rachel sweetie...I-I'm so sorry"
Monica sat on the bed stroking her friends arm. Her own tears threatening to fall.
"Is Ross mad?"
"Rach sweetie why would Ross be mad" Her friend finally turned her head towards her.
"Because I killed our baby" Monica sat there in shock as more tears fell from Rachel's eyes.
"Rachel hey look at me, this isn't your fault okay you couldn't have prevented this."
"I have to deliver the baby."
"What?"
"They induced me so that I can deliver the baby as quickly as possible. I don't want to Mon. I don't want to see them take my lifeless child away from me. This wasn't how it was all supposed to go. I was supposed to be at home with Ross and Emma listening to stories about boring dinosaurs while watching Emma play with her toys on the floor smiling to herself. I ruined any chance of that though didn't I. I left. I couldn't handle the stress and fear of staying at home and putting my family in danger. I should never have left I should have told Ross the truth but I didn't and now everyone hates me and I'm all alone again. I can't live like this Monica it should have been me not my baby. She did nothing wrong she didn't deserve to die." Monica listened as her friend broke.
"You were having a girl?"
"Yes"
"Rachel, no matter what's happened over the last year I will always be here for you no matter what. I was only angry with you tonight because I was so hurt when you left but now I realise maybe you didn't have a choice."
"I'm sorry"
"I know Rach,I know and Ross could never hate you"
"The midwife said that the labour will be painful...Will you stay with me?....Please?
"Of course just let me go tell Chandler"
In the waiting room
"I just can't do this man I can't"
"Ross listen I know this has been hard on you but you need to get back in there man. She needs you"
Both Ross and Chandler looked up as they heard Monica walking towards them.
"So I'm going to stay with her till after she delivers the baby"
"Wait she had to deliver the baby?"
"Yeah I talked to the midwife when I left the room and she said that because she's 6 months along the baby has to be delivered and they don't want to do a C-section because they think it's to risky"
"Oh my god"
"Ross listen I think you should go talk to her"
"I can't Mon I just can't"
"Ross she thinks you hate her"
"That's ridiculous I could never hate her"
"Just go talk to her please"
"I can't"