Blessed With A Curse | Mike Kuza Fic

I Saw You Turn To Shadow

~Lilith

Kuza's POV

  I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. But what's there to do when the one you love walks away?

  "And you can't even say anything..." she scoffed, shaking her head at me. I felt tears flood my eyes.

  "Please don't do this Celeste..." I whispered, hugging myself as a sob wracked my tall, thin body.

  She raised an eyebrow as she let out a harsh laugh. "No? You don't want me to go?" she asked, grabbing a fistful of my shirt and pulling me close.

  "Please don't!" I sobbed, trying to hug her. She slapped my hands away. "Prove it then!" she growled.

  "Prove you want me to stay. Prove to me you aren't gonna fucking hurt me anymore. Prove to me I made the right choice giving up Heaven for you!"

  She continued to scream at me till I was on my knees, hands over my ears, begging her to stop.

  She dropped to her knees and grabbed my wrists roughly, tearing my hands away from my head.

  "You know that pain you're feeling, right now?" she asked, "Like, your whole entire world is crashing down, and there's nothing you can do?"

  I was so overcome by my sobbing I couldn't speak properly, so I didn't try; Celeste didn't like that.

  "Answer me Michael!" she shouted. "Yes!" I cried, trying to pull away from her. "Good. Take that feeling and multiply it a hundredfold.

  "Then add humiliation, betrayal, embarrassment, and violation. That is how you made me feel!" she yelled.

  "Then just fucking kill me!" I screamed at her, finally meeting her gaze. She froze, her mouth hanging slightly open in shock.

  I summoned a blade and held it out to her. "Do it. Fucking kill me. Right now." I said, trying to sound firm though my voice still shook.

  She pushed the knife away so it clattered on the floor and whispered, "No." I picked it up again and shoved it into her hand.

  "Fucking kill me since I deserve it!!!" I screamed. "Kuza stop it!" she shouted, starting to cry.

  "I can't fucking kill you okay!" she protested, throwing the knife down the hallway.

  She tackled me with a hug so that I was flat on my back with her laying on top of me, and she started sobbing.

  "Why do you do this to me?" she asked, her voice muffled. "I don't know!" I cried, holding her tightly to my chest.

  We stayed like that for a bit till I finally blinked us to my bedroom, making sure we were on my bed.

  "I hate you." she murmured, her voice slightly muffled, "I hate you but I love you so much."

  I ran my fingers through her hair as I kept my other arm wrapped tightly around her delicate frame.

  "Any bruising?" I asked quietly. She said nothing, but shook her head. I sighed and kissed her temple.

  After a bit she stopped crying, but still clung to me. "I don't understand you." she muttered.

  I couldn't blame her. I don't understand myself. I tell her I love her so much, and then I defile her.

  "Get some sleep sweetheart, we can figure things out later." I told her. She nodded and moved so she was on the bed on her side, still facing me.

  I got up off the bed, and Celeste whimpered. "What's wrong?" I panicked, kneeling beside the bed and looking her over.

  She bit her lip, studying me before saying, "Stay with me." My first instinct was to climb back in bed and hold her, but for some reason, I couldn't do it.

  "How about I go get Ashcky," I offered, "have him stay with you?" She shook her head as tears filled her eyes once again.

  "I want you!" she whined, tugging on my shirt. "Maybe later, sweetheart." I said, standing up.

  I blinked away to find Ashcky, who was hanging around Jalex and Chricky. "Hey Ashes, Celeste needs you." I told him.

  "Good timing." Jalex smiled, stepping over to me, "Cuz uh, I need you..." She looked up into my eyes and ran her fingers from my chest to down south.

  "Yeah I'm sure you never get fucked." I laughed. "Where's Celeste? Is she okay?" Ashcky asked.

  "She's in my room, she's upset but otherwise okay." I answered. Ashcky rolled his eyes and disappeared from view.