I don't know why I miss you so much.
You constantly rip my heart out.
I don't want to love you anymore.
But I can't help it.
You were the only person to get me.
My oldest friend..
I wish things were different.
I wish you could go back to the old you.
There was so much we didn't get to do.
So much we had to experience.
I wish your life turned out different.
But we can't prevent our biggest fears.
I hope you're happy.
I hope she was worth it.
Do you even miss me anymore?
Do you even think about me?
I wonder if you play the songs I showed you.
I don't understand why you'd leave.
You always promise you won't and you always do.
I don't understand.
I really needed you.
But I don't know if it's for selfish reasons.
I try to keep my distance for your sake but I just want to text you to ask how you're doing.
Every time I think about you my stomach goes in knots.
I feel sick and lose my breath.
It hurts more than I thought.
Maybe it's because I've experienced this before.
I wish it were different.
Maybe it's just me.
Maybe I never got closure and it feels too similar.
God this is pathetic.
Why do I have to care this much..
I wish I didn't have to.
Fuck.
I hate this.
But I hope you're happy.
You deserve to be.
Even if I'm not apart of it.
So I guess this is it.
This is our end of the line.
I thought we'd at least have a proper goodbye.
Then again you weren't always good at goodbyes.
It's okay.
I'll keep my tears to myself.
If you ever need me I'll be right here waiting.
Like always.
You were there for me before I even knew what you were doing.
I'll try to do the same.
I'll try to let go.
It's just so fucking hard when you had all these memories with someone... right.
Like I'm losing my shit over something I shouldn't be.
I guess it shows how much I care?
Please don't forget me.
I can't forget you.
