He talks to me when he wants to feel high like he's soaring above the clouds,
I know what he does behind closed doors
and act like it's ok even though my head is filled with doubt.
Can't lie about one thing, I feel like I'm getting in too deep to come back,
But I know I don't want it to stop, there's something about him that I don't want to lack.
It goes so well most of the time but I know something is troubling his lost soul,
I wonder what it is sometimes, maybe a guilty conscience but I'm not one to be told.
We are one in the same, both in the same wrongs;
Yet why does it feel right until you sit for a while and stare up at the ceiling for so long?
This life is really peculiar; emotional unavailability catches up to you,
Why does my heart hurt when I turn it back on and become true?
I want what I think I would like, but do we consider what's not accessible ?
I'm baffled by the concept of this food for thought that's marked inedible.
What are your underlying fears?
When you think about her at night, is there any room for me there?
We both know what this is and how this goes.
Even though I feel like we will just set ourselves up for failure getting entangled into emotional and chemical bows.
I can't deny that many many nights I've been with another and my mind strays back to one thing, and that's you.
My first love, I wonder if I'll ever forget your name and all the things we do.
Here we are back where we left off, has anything really changed?
Why don't you just tell me what you want to tell me? Then again don't. I won't be phased.
Best friends will do, my rule is to be merry and take it slow.
We'll see where the time takes it, and how far this will go.
