I wonder if I'll ever be able to live and love without abandon.
Every day I am overwhelmed with past images of people who have done me wrong.
I don't know if I'll ever be able to completely move right on.
Without you I'm dead inside, without your guidance I have no tomorrow.
I'll cry every night until you come down to comfort me once more,
I'll think about the wrongs I've done until your voice comes calmly to let me know it's okay.
I want ever so badly to please the people I look up to.
It's hard to please others when you can't even be happy with yourself.
I want to listen to your words and engrave it into my heart.
I want to stop pushing you with many others away, and drive people apart.
Can you believe that I want love?
I've chased and chased after a disappearing act.
Why am I like this.
How can someone be this bitter and this stubborn?
Being alone is a lonely job.
My heart is closed again. I shut everyone out including you, the person I need the most.
I can't even open a crack for you because you refuse to make your way in without the door wide open.
Life is pain.
There's beauty out there somewhere.
My heart hurts again. The pills don't keep all the anxiety out.
Hold me close, sing to me like you did.
Tell me I'm your priceless treasure, treat me like a little kid.
I want your perfect love.
Help me live and love without abandon.
