I can't help but feel scared whenever you look at me,
It's like I can't get away.
You stare into my eyes and I try to hide from you.
Don't look inside my soul.
When you touch me and we kiss I have to hold back my tears and count to ten so that it can all be okay.
I've been hurt countless times, I don't know what else to say.
I want to tell you my story and open my life up to you but I'm terrified of letting you in.
I want to have you close with me without you judging me based on my sins.
Why can't everything be alright.
Why do I stay up crying on these lonesome nights..
Why can't I be strong enough to love without regret.
I knew That I wanted you from the moment our eyes first met.
When you touch me be gentle, because I die a little inside.
When you kiss me be mindful, because my hurt is hard to hide.
When you hold my hand, don't worry about the shivers and shakes.
When you pull me close please try to ignore the crying sounds I make.
I want to let you in, but opening that door is plenty of pain.
I'll try and try and try, because love should not be given in vain.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry I'm not whole.
I'm sorry that there are way better choices, and that My heart was the one you stole.
The dark nights seem extra dark and the walls close in.
Will you accept me as I am, or condemn me of my sin.
