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Vienna's Acceptance

   After that meeting I felt something that wasn't unusual to me. I feel the guilt that I don't give attention towards anyone because of the blind sided love I had with Lewis. I feel too that Courtney was pregnant the way she smell the food and sip her frappe. Weird if because I had it before or just a keen  observation. Anyway it's good for both of them. After   Saying all what's inside me I felt relieved that what I had inside me for so long was released and I thought she will get mad or fight with me but it's other way around. No doubt why Lewis wants her it's because she listens and never judge at all. A good character that now a days in this society is lacking when it comes to mistresses. I'm not saying I'm clean but everyone has their own reasons why. It's easy to judge anyway but I'm perfectly sure no one is clean.
    I send a message to Lewis when I reached my room stating I'm terminating the contract that I don't want to be her side chick anymore and thank him for everything he has done for me. I am planning to change my place and start to forget what I had with him. I don't want to ruin a good relationship or a family to be. I'm not a bad person I just had needs too. I saved from what Lewis has given me I guess that's enough to start a new life ahead of me. A clean personality with a good heart will always win. No matter how u make a bad decision theirs always a room for improvement.
    I know not everyone has the guts to do or the strength to leave a nice world that I had but I'm not getting young one day I'll become a wife and a mom I don't know what would I react if it will happen to me the same thing. For now the clarity and peacefulness of my heart is enough to move forward clean. Working hard to buy and get what u want is a fulfillment that no body gave or help you. The sweat the tears and fatigue was always worth every single penny u earned.
      I can walk head up high and can be proud that I did the right thing. Happiness is when u don't try to hurt anyone for your own selfish reasons. Now a days in this new technology era anyone can sell their body to have an iPhone anyone can give their purity to have a designer bag or became a sugar baby to any old man. We love material things while we used the people. I never though how far my imagination went until my phone rings.
     It was Lewis calling. " Hello?" I answered " Yes hello, I received your message I just want to know if you're really sure about your decision? Anyway u got it first actually I was about to discuss it to you I was just quite busy now a days" he said. " Yes I'm very sure of that and no need to explain me anything I feel and I saw that you're happy with her and I'm happy if you're setting to have a family on your own. You that I'm not a bad person you know that I never violated our contract even if I felt something to you." I replied. " I know that and I'm happy for your understanding and I wish you all the best in your future endeavors in life. For the last time I will send 1000$ to your account to help you start and your family. Don't say No it's from me giving it to you freely. Change your number and act as if you don't know me at all. Masalam Vienna. Thank you" tooot. That's the end of our conversation. I wasn't expecting anymore but he is really a gentleman to think my family.
   After I off my phone it beeps that he sent the money to my account. I put it back in my bed and I started to pack my things. No pain no regrets but fulfillment that I'm in my bad side and I choose to be clean. Enough to start a good year and make the most out of it being a good person. I know one day God will send me the person who will love me and I'll wait for the right time. Money is not everything but the love the care and attention of someone is everything. Money can be earned in a clean way anything that came from a bad ways easily be gone unfulfilling and not worthy.
        We make mistakes but theirs always a right turn. I never thought I was smiling while tears flowing I know it's a tears of joy happiness that I had the courage to do what is right. Physical need is not worthy when theirs no love or only one sided. Sex is just a body heat until it was made of love. Wiping my tears while I'm zipping my luggage. I need a vacation this time with my family it's been two years I'm
Not going home. I'll surprise them.
       Getting my phone and message my boss that I had an emergency that I need to take a fifteen days leave. It took them half an hour to reply and stating ok I can have it. I was excited to meet my family this time without hiding anything especially to my mom and dad. Time to heal my broken heart love can wait I need to love myself more. I can mingle anytime but when the right time comes.
     I called a taxi to pick me up and the grab taxi states after an hour. So I have time to fix myself and I get ready. I message the room owner that until the end of the month I will stay and leave the following day. After my vacation I will find a new place for me to start for now let me enjoy my freedom myself and Leo who really cares and love me without begging them.
      Exactly an hour the grab taxi came and one last time I look myself in the mirror I'm wearing a black distressed jeans white tight fit shirt and a pair of converse shoes. I let my hair lose I put. Alight make up with lip tint I smiled and headed myself to the door. New life to start and a new day to begin.