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Courtney's Heartbreak

After the encounter I had with Lewis after the merger I can't stop myself not to cry perhaps because of missing him. I can't blame him acting like that partly I lied to him. Everything is going smoothly with me and my family just a little bit more of closeness to my mom and it would be back to normal. As the saying you can't have it all. As there's no perfect life. The person that loves me and adore me like a fragile hate me the most. No matter how happy I am with my friends here supporting me still there's someone missing a part of me. I can't deny it's Lewis.
My friends went out with my brother in the city to buy some stuff or let me say some souvenirs to bring back to Dubai. After two day they were going back without me. I already sent an email of resignation letter and an apology to my company that I can't come back due to some reasons and they accept it.
My father needs me especially now that my mom can't go back to her usual routine in the office due to medication. My brother holds the different business ventures aside to this big company that my dad's holding the hotels. I know that in this time he needs my help and I can't bring him down. I need to set aside my love life there's always a time for this.
I want to heal my pain as well as give Lewis a time to understand me. Sooner or later we'll meet again due to our merger and discuss plans about the hotels that we are into. As of now I need to focus myself on helping my dad and analyze the company's finances and all. No matter how I wanna to dealt this heart of mine, to see and explain to Lewis why I did that. Meeting him was just a coincidence not a plan. I'm not a gold digger or something that what he used to think. I never used my charm to get his attention.
I never notice that tears fell down on my cheeks just when the drops went into my shirt that I feel it's warmth moist texture. I promised I wouldn't cry again. But the heart is hard to mend. Everything seems to dull. I can't remember when I laughed again? Been happy? Since I came back home all sad memories filled my heart. Become more sad coz  of being alone again as soon as my friends will go back to work.
I get my phone and lay down to bed, I never experienced this kind of pain with my ex. The little time I spent with Lewis fills my whole heart with love and respect. I really love him if not I won't sob and cry like a zombie. Awake at night and reminiscing our happy moments together. I love to look our photos together taken when we were in his room. Those type of hugs means security and type of smile means happiness.
I wonder what his doing now. Does he miss me too?
Does he really mad knowing who I really am? Too much questions running in my brain. It gave me headache. Without knowing I tap his number.
"If I got lock away would you still love me the same? If I showed you my flaws....." someone on the other line answered " Hello?"
That husky voice is from Lewis then I hurriedly tap my phone to turn it off. The ringtone still exactly same as mine and the lyrics hit me like a truck. How I missed that voice I'm eager to say but no words utter in my mouth gets dry . Tears again start to fall. I sob like there's no tomorrow. If my pillow only talking she will say enough coz of too much tears. Literally soaking and my eyes starting to get numb.
I can't take the pain it's so much and my eyes start to close getting heavier and take me to where I can have peace of mind.