You're the One for Me 💘

I want to be Confidently Beautiful Again.

     I wasn't expecting Clarke to call me in the middle of the night. But atleast  I gotta know some information regarding his brother. I'm right that everyone knows the merger and no doubt that the new project was in the way. That his family knew who I was. Based on Lewis tone he is not angry yet he needs and answer from me no tone of judging me. I knew he will understand me. This week I need to meet Lewis, I miss him but it's still painful. I can't blame him though. Sigh. I know Clarke can help me with that thing. I can count on him. I hope my plan will work. As of now I need to put back myself I have no choice but to be physically there and be strong my family and the people in our company count on me. Old physical feature to gain respect but same me humble to love by many. Been couple of year since I went to salon. I miss my friends I'll call them when I reach the salon to do new hair style with mani and pedi. I want relax my mind and my body I need a massage and foot spa. Oh God how I need this now. To lessen my stress I want feel good. I want show to Lewis that everything has a reason and that I'm the one for him. Just illegal him choose the old me or the me whom he met before.
         " Nana, I'm going to the salon, just kindly tell my mom and dad if ever they'll ask where I'm at. " I told my Nana Aracelli. She smiled and wave while on my way to the garage. It's been two long years I never drive my car. It's quite nervous on my side but what the heck I need to be. I have my license just I bet I need to be slowly for the mean time. I was laughing in my mind. I'm stupid to talk to myself. This a Mini Cooper Hard too 4 door. My baby Red, why because it's color red.lol. Simple. Nana Aracelli's husband still taking care of it. After I put the key on the ignition feel myself and put my seatbelt I go out on the drive way headed to my favorite salon.
      Nothing has change, same feeling so my nervousness diminished after a second. I feel the air as I open my window I miss this things, I see the old village my neighbors and the deja vu of my childhood. I'm home where I can say I feel myself contented. Thanks God. Thanks to all the pain I had I overcome all of it. I hope I can mend my heart not to be totally broken again. I hope that Lewis will forgive me. That he will hear me out.
      I reached the Lilly Belo's Salon it's near the University where I studied fashion design. It's my favorite because since I start modeling this the salon I count on. I'm wishing Lily is there. I want to surprise her since it's been 3 years we saw each other. I park on the side of the salon. I wear my sunglasses. I wear a simple black jeans with a white t-shirt with a smile print in the middle of it. And pair of Birkenstock's black slipper. This clothes makes me comfortable I feel I'm free same feeling when I was still in Dubai.
      After I locked my car I put the key in my pocket as I never bring bag I just hold my phone and my cardholder. As I open the door salon it's quite busy. I stand in the counter and the receptionist ask me what I want to do. I remove my sunglasses and put it in my head. I look everywhere to see if Lily is there. I didn't find here. There's so. Customer doing hair color, hair cut and mani paid thing. I ask the receptionist if Lilly is in the salon then she said yes and she'll call. After a minute she told me to sit that her madam Lilly will come that she's inside the private room for VIP client.
    I roam my eyes inside the salon it's new for me, it's been a while a lot changed. I look to the models which kind of treatment I want to do. I miss my old self but not my weak personality yet my eye catching striking style. I want Lewis to see me good for him. I want this confidence to bring me much closer to him physically attracted I want him to look at me like the way when we make Loved before all this shit happened. Oh God it's driving me insane. I feel my cheeks gets ready I remember that things. I feel sweat. Lol. I redirected my attention to the girl having an ash colored hair straight with a wavy on the tip. I want that style sexy and seductive. If I want get the attention of Lewis I need to take risk. I want my nails long with a bit of bling glitters.
    Ten minutes past, a beautiful lady came come. She went directly to the receptionist and then look on me. She's trying to figure out who I was. Until I talk  " Hey Lilly long time yeah, it's me Courtney remember?" I stand and without a blink she hug me " you change a lot dear, long time. how you'd been doing things.welcome back" she smiling told me after she removed her hand on me and look at me. " come let's go to my office, let's talk and I'll do there what ever you want do." She replied while she pulling me excitedly on her office. " a lot change you have big and beautiful shop now huh? I told her. while she is getting ready for the tools. I sit in the black and red sofa. In front of her table. I look in the wall my photos are still there hanging. " oh Lilly you still have my old photos?" I asked her again. " yes ofcourse why I need to remove them, because of you I get famous a lot of clients come after you let me do all the make up in your modeling career. I felt bad you just gone without saying goodbye." She said with a bit of sadness. " it's been a tough decision in myself Lil" that's how I call her. She smile when she hears me call her the nickname I gave to her. " I miss you Court, especially when you call me Lil." But I'm happy now. You came by I know you have a good life and u learn a lot comeback stronger then ever." She said. "Before you tell me, I wanna know what you want me do to you. I let my staff continue the treatment I'm doing for my previous customer, so I can be with you. We have a lot to catch up" she told me.
       I choose to have a hair treatment with an ash blonde color. Mani and pedi with foot spa and massage. Brazilian was and facial thing. I told her to make beautiful again. She laugh and she started doing my hair while we are chatting. Then after she put medicine on my hair. She called one staff to
Do on my hand and feet. Then she started to do on my face. We stop talking coz someone is inside. So I put my ear pod and I called Edzy and Jenny.
         " Hello Beshy!" Edzy answered the phone. shouting I know she's just excited as usual noisy lol. " Besh, I miss you all, God Ive been so much busy but after tomorrow I'll be back there, I need to find a condo my dad told me I need to find place so if they'll come there they have place to live instead of hotel. I can't be with you guys but you are all welcome to my place where we can do drink watch movie without thinking because no one will scold us. I hope nothing change to our friendship now you know who I really am guys." I said with a bit of sadness. "Crazy?! Though! Ofcourse we loved u for whoever the fucking Kardashian you are! Nothing change rather we admired you for being strong enough to face reality. Jenny is here sleeping I told her after we had been in your place in Guam that you have facing such difficulties why you did what you did. She said that no one can judge you but we will never rather we are grateful for being a part of your journey. I agree with her I hope we make your life crazy , happy and you feel love by us." She replied while she's a bit ready because I feel her sigh and heavy breathing. " enough drama besh, you make me cry." She said again. " yeah right I love you guys I'll see you soon after two days. I'm in the salon now. " bye send my regards to the two crazy ass ok? " I told her. " we love you beshy see u after two days. Be beautiful let Lewis feel horny to you!!!" Hahahahashe replied after she hang the phone.
Then I closed and relax my mind until they finished my treatment.