You're the One for Me 💘

My Nana Arcelli, my Human Diary

        Just 7 in the morning, someone is knocking on my door. I shout who ever that was saying that he or she can come in. I saw my Nana, been two years since I saw her again. She add age, still same lady that I knew since I was a kid. She raised me up, she knew me very well even when I was silent. Like she can read what's goin on in my mind She walks towards my bed and I tao my hand to signal that she can sit near the headboard. She sit and try to touch my hair brush it with her fingers. I missed this touch a caring one that I never felt with my mom. For a while I stayed in that position while I was hugging her waist. I never thought I was crying silently that at-last someone is there to understand me even in my silent moment.
       " Your mom and dad is in the kitchen, they were making breakfast for you and Dave. They told me you can both go down after an hour." She told me while she's wiping the tears in my face. I look and smiled at here. " I miss you, Court", she said in a low voice. " Since you left two years ago every things changed. Dave is a guy so he doesn't cara lot what's going on here. Yeah he lives here but he was always out. School before then now in your company and his friends. Unlike when you were still here this house still alive. But I understand why u did such things. I know you since you were a kid, I know if something is bothering you like now. I admired you for being strong amidst of your status and pain, you choose to follow your heart desires and fight for what you think that will makes you happy. I'm very proud of you." She said while she hugs and kiss my hair.
     " Nana, how much you love Manong Jun, I asked her. His husband is Manong Jun, my dad's driver too. That's why they were so closed to my family and there threw kids, Joshua, Angel and Jonathan. They were my second family. I am so much closed to these three kids like my own brother's and sister. Same with Dave too. My dad gave them scholarship that's why Nana and Manong were always good to us. Sign of respect and thankfulness to my dad. But my dad kept on saying that it's equal to all the good things they were doing for us.
      " I loved him for who and what he is as a person, I learned to accept and forgive no matter how hard the situation is". She replied. She was a bit curious why all of a sudden I asked her that way. I sit behind the headboard facing her, while she gets my comb and tried to do my hair a messy bun. I missed this
Simple care with her.
    " What if Manong Jun hide something from you but not to hurt you but to save something which is the situation is hard to deal? I asked her again. She looked at me intently after she did a bun on my hair
And smile " At first I will get upset or angry normal
For us ladies to react but he knows me, like two or three days I will let him explained why he need to
Do that. If the explanation is valid and reasonable I need to accept it if not separation is the only way. I never gets jealous but if I did it takes time for me to forgive if the reason is another woman." I look at her she's a bit serious but after she said all that she look
At me with a naughty smile on her face. "Why? Are you in love again? Someone betrayed you?" She
Asked me back.
      I look in my window " I am Nana, small world, as you see a lot changed in me not only my physical but also my emotional self. I have a lot patience now and I am persistent to everything I want do. My perception in life also change a lot. I love who I am now, low key which I am able to do anything what I want I can go anywhere I want without paparazzi following me. I got my freedom. But my faith brings me back to this life I tried to escape two years ago." I looked at her she was intently listening to me and I continued. " This guy is so much famous in Dubai he was the son of the business tycoon my dad did a merger two days ago. Small world yeah? He never knew that I was who I am now. I didn't tell him
Anything though I knew who he was in the first place. He thinks I betrayed him. I only want to
Live humbly peacefully far from this chaotic world. I'm tired of all the fake facade I need to do every day. I can't stand this life that's why I did change my identity and my physical self but inside I'm still same me. I just regain strength and freedom that I was
Longing for long time ago. Besides I need to forget the pain I had on that moment." I told here and look at her again. She was smiling she tried to reach my right hand and hold it. " Give him sometime to think, I guess he was confused feel betrayed and hurt if he truly loves you." She answered. " let him cool down
Give him a week then let's see what would gonna happen. For the meantime fix yourself, and get ready for your family breakfast. If that man really loves you he will come to you and listen why?" She stand up and heading to my door. Before she closed the door she added " If you love that man too make a way, sometimes a man needs to be pursued too" she blink with a smile on her face  and close my door. I stand up brush my teeth and heading towards our dining area.