i know, you know, we know

Chapter 11

Jennie learns that it's possible to miss someone who's standing right in front of her. She grips the sleeve of Lisa's navy blue coat and bites the inside of her cheek to keep from saying something stupid and selfish like don't go.

"Ni..." Lisa murmurs as she steps closer to her. "I have to go in a bit. Manager-oppa will kill me if I'm late."

Jennie sighs and tries not to think about how long Lisa's supposed to be in China. "Have you packed everything you need? Do you have your passport? Boarding pass?"

Lisa gives her a fond smile, and it does nothing but make it harder for Jennie to let her go. "Yes, yes, and yes."

"Do you have snacks? Chocolate milk?"

Lisa chuckles. "You're stalling me."

She pouts. "Can you blame me? I feel like we've barely had time with each other."

"I know," Lisa says a little sadly. "I don't think it's ever been this hard for me to leave you."

Jennie steps closer, parts Lisa's bangs, and pulls her down by her nape. She presses a kiss on the forehead that Lisa's always been insecure about, loving the way the woman instantly relaxes, her hands finding her hips.

"I already miss you. Is that weird?" She asks as Lisa straightens. Jennie loves that she doesn't make a move to fix her bangs.

"I feel the same way, Ni."

And Jennie can believe that because Lisa's hands press harder around her hips like she's just as unwilling to let go. It makes her a little bit sad because if they were nothing more than two women in love, they could have fun dates and peaceful mornings and more time. She knows that she shouldn't be thinking about these things, but sometimes, she just can't help it.

"I kind of like missing you," Lisa says suddenly.

She thinks Lisa might be a masochist. Lisa chuckles at the disbelief that she doesn't hide. "You're gonna have to explain that to me, Li."

"Missing you means I know what it's like to be with you," Lisa breathes. "It means that no matter where I am or what I'm doing, there's nothing more I'd like to be than be with you. Missing you means I'll be coming home to you."

Jennie feels her toes curl at that, feels her stomach somersault, feels her heart swoon. She slaps Lisa's arm half-heartedly. "You're such a sap."

"You love it," Lisa quips, a small smirk on her lips.

Unable to come up with a response that isn't I love you, Jennie settles for looking up at Lisa. Look at that smile, she thinks. So brave, so loving, so happy. Her breath hitches, her heart still unused to seeing exactly how much Lisa feels for her. She doesn't know what makes her do it but it feels right when she leans up slightly on her tiptoes and places a kiss on Lisa's lips. She feels her happiness against her mouth, and Jennie knows nothing sweeter than this.

"Text me when you land, okay?"

Lisa wraps her arms around her waist. "Okay."

"Lisa-yah," Jennie coos, hands cupping Lisa's neck. "I love you."

The grip around her waist tightens. "I love you, too, Jennie. I can't wait to come home to you."

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Sometimes, Jisoo doesn't like Jennie. She loves her, but she swears that sometimes, Jennie makes it hard for her to remember why. She didn't get a wink of sleep because Jennie decided to invade her room, apparently unable to sleep until Lisa calls her and tells her that she's alright. And then, she proceeded to have a very long phone call with Lisa until the wee hours of the morning. When Jisoo thought that they were finally going to get some sleep, Jennie had turned to her and started brainstorming date ideas.