heavenly divine - r. suna

5

"and maybe we were meant to
be, or maybe we just convinced
ourselves that's we'd last forever.
but at least i got to meet you,
such a heavenly divine person."

i read from the script.

i was at the building for my
script pick up. i was the main
character for the movie, a movie
about a hopeless romantic
falling in love with someone
she wasn't supposed to.

i want something like that.

i was sitting on a couch with the
rest of the cast beside me, kari
my best friend in the movie. she
became my best friend in real
life too. it was like we've known
eachother forever.

we were laughing eating the sugar
cookies they put out for us. the cast
was excited to see me; why? maybe
because an american was going to be
the main character of a movie, and
moved all the way to japan to film.

i exchanged number with everyone, they
all seem so welcoming and so sweet. i think
this movie will be so fun to shoot.

————

arriving at home, it was a wednesday
night. staring at my ceiling. life was
so dull.

i got bored so i started playing
some piano. i took it up because
i thought, "hey piano involves
your fingers to be moving, and
maybe it will help with being
a setter."

did it work? i don't know i don't
pay much attention. i don't even
know if i can continue volleyball.

i started playing falling by harry
styles on the piano.

my fingers pressing the keys,
flowing gracefully as beautiful
music came out of it. the petal
being stepped on, a bit squeaky.

finishing the song, i felt a bit more
at ease. was it therapeutic? yes.

walking around the house a bit more.
exploring, i see a room down the hall of
mine. i open the door as no one is home.

the twins were with the team and mom was
out shopping.

the room had a cool breeze. it was neat,
the bed with blue bedding. a wooden
desk across from the bed right under
the window. a few pictures placed
pictures of what seems to be,
suna?

i understood suna stayed over
at our house when he wanted.
there was so clothes in the closet,
a few hoodies and uniforms.

a mirror near the door. a charger
that was on the ground.

i examine the room one last
time before leaving.

something about suna seem
so familiar.

———

it was 1am and i have yet
to fallen asleep

going on tiktok to spare some
time, that was until i got a
sudden text from my dad.

dad
i will be in japan next
month for my business. i'm having a
ball. i want you to be my special guess,
you can have a plus one. so please
find a dress.

well that's weird.