heavenly divine - r. suna

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why was i getting blamed
for my fathers doing. it
wasn't like i was the one
controlling everything.
i had my career.

what did my dad want at
this ball? to take more
from them?

why is he so okay with
atsumu and osamu but
not me.

was i just another toy
he used to get over another
girl?

what's wrong with me.

i feel more empty than before.

my home away from home really
just kicked me out.

———

it was 4am and i walked
back into my house, tear
stained face.

the house people drunk on the
floor. kita cleaning the house,
hina and samu cuddling on the
couch.

y/n
kita-san go home, i don't want
you cleaning the house for the mess
we made

kita
no it's alright i stayed up to see
if you were ok when coming home.
cleaning was just to ease my mind

y/n
thank you for everything you do

kita
don't mention it, go to bed. it's late
and you're tired.

y/n
there's a key under
the kitchen counter,
you can use it and unlock
one of the guest room.

kita
thank you

y/n
sleep well

———

walking to my room, passing
sunas.

it was quiet, probably asleep.
it has been 2 hours since the talk.
all i did was cry.

i took his sweater off, and just
fell asleep on my bed.

———

waking up at 3pm i got
up and checked some emails.

i have a table reading tomorrow.

getting ready for some meetings
that i have.

i put makeup on so it doesn't
look like i had a party and cried.

putting on some straight
leg baggy jeans, my jordan 1s,
and an argyle sweater.

walking downstairs phone,
wallet, and keys in my hand.

ignoring everyone i just walk out
the door. calling a taxi, i should
really get my license. i have one
back home in america.

should i move back there?

arriving at the building, my manager
greeted me at the door.

manager
tired?

y/n
of course

walking into the elevator,

manager
remember deep breaths,
you're going to be okay.

———
sitting at the table, it's been
an hour into this meeting.

looking at the paper i could sign.

do i want to be a voice actor
for an episode?

my manager looks
over the paper work.

manager
take out 7

the business woman
crossed out number 7

i sign my paper.

businesswoman
you start next week

i just want to be a normal
teen sometimes.

i'm homesick for arms that don't know
how to hold me

———

home alone

the twins were out doing who
knows what, mom was
working.

walking over to my windowsill
that had my piano placed under.

resting my phone against the window.

i started a live stream, why?

i don't know. maybe to feel less
lonely

y/n
heyyy guys, it's been
awhile since i've last live
streamed. i just wanted
to come here because i was a bit
lonely.

comments
you're so pretty
why are you alone?
how's brandon?
any new boys?
where's your brothers?
where's suna?

y/n
woah so many comments
um ok, why am i alone? well
i'm home alone. brandon?
he blocked me on twitter.
new boys? haha don't fall in
love. my brothers? i don't know
actually i should text them, but
i don't want to waste their time
doing whatever. suna? oh um
i don't know, i think he's mad at me.

comments
why is he mad at you?
notice me🥺
can you say "bonjour?"
will this be the day you notice me?
play some piano
are you excited for the movie?

y/n
honestly i think what we had
was between us two, but he did
nothing wrong. i think he's an
amazing person. always has and
forever will be. he was my home
away from home. i really do care
for him, but please don't go hating
on him. if anything it's my fault. hate
on me, but i also had no part in it. its
confusing.

comments
you're so amazing🥺
favourite anime?
where do you shop?
are you going to start doing
tiktok?

y/n
tiktok? well probably not
for a career, but for funzies?
absolutely, i'll make a secret
account and see if you guys
can find me.

i want sushi,

y/n
wait guys give me a
second i'm going to
ubereats some sushi.

the live goes on for 20 minutes
before a knock at the door. i
get up to take my sushi before
returning back to my room.

y/n
wow the comments are
really going crazy. well
i think that's it for today.
i'll probably watch some
movies or go over my script.
bye guys see you again soon.

live ended