Footballer Imagines (Premier League)

Staying or going - Dele Alli

thought it'd be best to give you the request for this one to understand the context:

You're pregnant but finding the uncertainty around dele's future, whether he's staying at spurs or not, whether it's just a loan or a permanent move to Paris among other things like finding a new ob-gyn in Paris and everything about the baby and not having family in the same city a bit hard to deal with but you put on a brave face for dele cos you know it's not easy for him either. He knows you're tryna be strong and understanding for him when it should be the other way around and feels absolutely rotten not being able to give you clarity a time like this and does something super cute but not cheesy and speaks to you about it. You can decide that

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It was the uncertainty that got you, I mean even if you knew he was going that would've been something, so you could at least plan ahead and whatever, but the fact you hadn't a clue what was happening at the minute was so bloody annoying. Like was he staying? Was he packing his bags? Was it just for the season or on a permanent? Too many questions were running through your head daily, stressing you out to the max, just wanting a simple "yes" or "no" answer. Oh and being pregnant didn't help the situation either, panicking about possibly transferring to another country and wondering about literally everything like, getting a new midwife, having a proper birth plan, basically all things medical wanting it to be perfect for when your baby girl arrives in a matter of months.

Don't get me wrong, you were buzzing for your boyfriend, when you heard he had the chance to get his career back on track and actually be able to do what he loves everyday, you couldn't be happier, it was just what he needed, but deep down you were struggling to come to terms with it all and you being the soft little shite you are, shoved on a fake smile and got on with the whole situation, not wanting to complain. If you weren't six months pregnant right now, you would've been up for a change of sensory in a heartbeat, especially leaving to live in such a beautiful country like France and to be fair, it wouldn't have seemed like a million miles away if it was just you and him, however it wasn't just the two of you anymore was it, yous now had the responsibility of baby Alli and of course she was going to come above everything else. Speaking of family, if this transfer was going to happen it meant you wouldn't be able to just get in the car and take a half an hour motorway journey to see your parents whenever you fancied, which was hard to think about seeing as you were super close with them and not to mention the fact they wouldn't be around for the remainder of your pregnancy was too scary to imagine

At this point, you had never felt so alone and confused, like obviously you wanted what was best for him, but you also wanted what was best for your little girl and in the back of your mind, you knew it was to stay here in England. Dele wasn't daft, he could see right through your false act of happiness, you know seeing as yous had been together nearly three years and really, you were never the best liar, no matter how many fake smiles you showed him, he could always tell there was something off. Even though everything was quite up in the air at the minute, still having no answer to whether he was staying or going, he couldn't help but feel guilty for all this, seeing you day in day out pretending to be full of life and excited when really you were drained and tired and not just because you were pregnant, it was torturous for him seeing as in reality HE should be the one looking after YOU, not the other way around.

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...Anyways after the most stressful month of your lives, it started to look like Del was staying put at Spurs, for this season anyways, which eased your mind a lot, thankful there was no more sudden panic of packing up and moving. And with all this going on, the two of you barely had the time to act like a proper couple and seeing as you had missed several date nights, Dele wanted to give you a special one to show his appreciation for everything you'd done over the last few weeks, I mean you were willing to literally move to another bloody country in Europe for him, it was the least he could do.

And by god he went all out...booking a five star dinner cruise and having a three course meal on the Thames, to then taking you around all of London's famous landmarks, and finally ending up back at your apartment and having a movie night, well you kind of got distracted from the film half way through when yous were both no longer able to keep your hands off one another...but, it really couldn't have been a more perfect night. It eventually felt like everything was beginning to fall into place and for the first time in ages you were feeling your best, relaxed and happy, and couldn't wait to meet baby Alli in just over 3 months ❤️