Second Life

crazy thought's

The next day went by in the same way eating, swimming, walking by the beach, even though they tried to distract me from the various thoughts after the conversation with Abby , they could succeed a bit but, a part of my mind is always thinking about whether I should visit California or not.

But I was glad none of them pushed me to tell what happened yesterday. They respected my privacy.

Of course I will be telling them everything, because I cant keep within my self anymore. But, first I need to figure things out.

In the past, I used to keep everything within myself and my heart used to feel heavy now that I have them and when I told them about half my truth, I felt lighter.

Now we are on our way back to Nash's apartment we decided to have dinner and then go our separate ways .

After a lot of thinking I decided to go home find the truth and then deal with that , even though I don't want to go, I will for the sake of Aunt Audra. I at least owe her that much for being there for me all the time, she was the light of my life.

Immediately after reaching house we ordered pizza and it was Xavier's past bed time, so he slept.
All of us are now sitting in the living area spread out and are too busy engrossed in devouring their pizza's.

"I am planning to go visit California" were my first words which caused every one to snap their heads at me.

After a few seconds Melanie spoke up "Are you crazy "

"Tell me you are kidding Amber." Ash said narrowing her eyes.

"You are not going back to California no matter what Amber" Henry said

"And you are also not going to meet your so called parents who treated you like that." Jake said.

"You are not leaving us , are you?" Nash asked

"Will guys let me complete what I have to say." I snapped at them and immediately realized

"Sorry guys I shouldn't have talked like that"  I apologized immediately

"No, you don't need to apologize ever and especially to us. We did not give you a chance to complete your talk and we came to conclusions." Sansa replied for every one.

"Sorry it is just that a lot has been running in my head, I haven't been thinking straight." I apologized again

"Ok enough of sorry's now tell us what is going on inside that little head of yours." Tiana asked

     I said the whole story that Abby told me."Ughh! After what Abby said I think I have to go to California if not for me I have to go for my Aunt and as you guys assumed I am not staying back there. I will be back to New York because my life is here now and wherever you guys are. I am just going there to know what exactly happened to my aunt. "

"Ok so when are you planning on going? Nash asked me.

"The question is not when am I going it should be when are we going."

"What do you mean by we are going ? " Patrick asked with questioning tone.

"We have holidays for a week after the next week so why not all of us go visit California for a week and enjoy the holiday and Patrick I don't care whether you are having any holidays or not you are applying for a leave and you are coming with us no matter what."

Patrick just shrugged and Sansa spoke up "you have this all planned out right? "

I just chuckled and nodded. "Ok on a serious note at least one of us will be there with you when you visit your parents or where ever you go for that matter." Jake said with a stern voice and I just nodded.