Red lights and Stop signs

Chap. 9 Kaylas

TRIGGER WARNING: Eating Disorder

I am about to flip a table. It's been about a month and a half since Jaylen and I became friends and it's been two weeks since I figured out my feelings for him. We are currently in the school hall before third period talking about different movies. It was all going fine until Jocelyn walked by and I swear he was acting like she was a Greek goddess or something. He was staring at her while I just stood there trying my best not to scowl. "She is the prettiest human on earth." Jaylen announced. "If you say so." I mumbled. 

 "What was that?" Jaylen asked me. "Nothing." I said. "I think I'm going to ask her out soon." He told me. I just gaped at him. "What?" He asked when he noticed my expression. "Nothing." I grumbled. "You know if you keep saying that I'm going to think it is actually something. Jaylen joked. "C'est quoi ton problème?" Was the first thing Isaac said to me when he got to us at Jaylen's locker. "Nothing." I said yet again in English so that Jaylen would understand us. "That's the third time he's said that." Jaylen laughed to Isaac. "Your keeping count?" I asked even though I wasn't really looking for an answer.

 He just smiled back at me and I melted on the spot. This boy does not even realize the things he does to me. "Kaylas I need to talk to you now." Isaac spoke as he grabbed my wrist and already started pulling me down the hall. I quickly said goodbye to Jaylen as Isaac pulled me into an empty closet. He looked very nervous and I was starting to get worried. "What is it? Your freaking me out, I've never seen you this nervous before." I said frantically. "Last night I went over to Dennis's house and Dennis said he and Lilly aren't going to work out. He said he liked me and didn't want to stay with Lilly since he knew he liked me more and that he regretted ever-ending things with me. Then we had sex and after that, we were laying in bed and he asked me to exclusively go out with him. But I said that I dont really like the term boyfriends but I will officially, exclusively date him and he agreed so now we are together and telling people but he's not my boyfriend but if someone asked if we were dating we would both say yes." Isaac jumbled out so fast that I only caught about half of what he was saying.

 "Ok calm down. This is good right?" I questioned. "Yes, but you know I don't do relationships. What if I screw it up?" He asked with total seriousness. "Babe you are the best person that I have ever met, I don't think there is a single thing that you could do that would make Dennis not want to be with you anymore." I tried to assure him. He seemed to calm down after I said that. "Okay, my freak out is over. When are you going to ask out Jaylen?" He asked, back to his blunt self in a matter of seconds. I choked on air when he said that. "What?" I asked. "You know, what. You clearly like him and he told us he likes guys so you have a chance." He said as if it was simple.

 "Ok so you're right about me liking him but he doesn't like me back. He likes that Jocelyn chick so I would just embarrass myself and end up losing a friend if I asked him out." I informed Isaac. "Oh true. Ok just let him ask out the girl. You don't really need all that drama." Isaac said seriously. "Aren't you supposed to say something encouraging me to ask him out like "you have nothing to worry about" or "I'm sure he likes you back go for it"?" I asked him. "Oh, I'm sorry I think you've mistaken me for your other best friend that actually cares." Isaac joked. "I hate you." I lied. "Oh please, you know you love me." Isaac told me. I just huffed jokingly and grabbed his hand to drag him out of the room. 

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 "Bonjour les garçons amant" Evie yelled across the cafeteria when Isaac and I walked in. "Aw, you learned French for us." Isaac stated as he put his arm around Evie's shoulder. Evie just punched his sholder in response. Isaac has grown to like everyone in our new friend group now. Him and Evie have started acting like brother and sister and he talks to Leo about books and Jaylen and Isaac act like they don't like each other but they obviously like each other's company. "I'm starving." Leo announced once we all sat down with our food. I was indeed not starving, the opposite really. Today was just one of those days where I know that if I ate lunch I would vomit it up. 

 It was now thirty minutes into lunch and everyone already ate while I sat there with a plate full of food that I don't want. Isaac looked at me, then at my plate, then back at my face. "Can you just try?" Isaac begged in a sad tone. No one else at the table was paying attention to us since they were all in their own little conversations. I picked up a small fork full of my mashed potatoes and brought it to my mouth. I tried so hard to continue eating it but I just couldn't. I rushed out of my seat and through up in the nearest trash can. I felt a hand on my back but I was a bit preoccupied vomiting to care about who it was.

 After a few minutes, I lifted my head and saw Jaylen standing there with his hand still on my back and a sympathetic look in his eyes. "Are you all right." He questioned me with a concerned tone. I simply nodded my head and walked back to the table. "I'm sorry." I said to Isaac who was looking at me. "It's fine babe." He replied. Everyone looked at Isaac and were probably about to say something when Isaac shut them all up with one look. The bell finally rang and saved me from the awkwardness. I was quick to throw away my lunch and race out of there and get to my next class early.