A Mortal Instrument Fanfic

Five Year Later

5 year later

Clary

I sat at a chair in the garden and caressed my belly while I saw Christopher play whit some worms. I looked at him closely. My baby boy was now eight and I sometimes were afraid of him. Jonathan had Christopher trained hard and once every month he gave him more demon blood to be stronger. I sometimes wonder what would have happened if I never left New York that night when Jace cheats. Jace. My beautiful angelic Jace. I miss him so much.

“Mommy!” Christopher say´s and shows me a worm. I look at the worm and then at him closely and right then something changed in his pit black eyes and he snaps the worm in two pieces and start laughing. I looked at the worm in his hand with a horrifying face and I feel sick. It´s not the first time Christopher has killed an animal. He has taken a liking in torturing and killing them but it frightens me. He isn´t my baby anymore. I need to start accepting that he is a demon. A demon in a human body just like his father. Right his father, there is so much that has changed. Jonathan is a different person. This is not the man I married. A couple of years back Jonathan started to hit and rape me. If I did something to defend myself he would just go after Christopher and I couldn´t let that happened. I have a lot of slash marks on my back and always a couple of bruises on my body.

I was so lost in thought I didn´t hear when Jonathan walked out to us.

“Hey baby” he whispered in my ear and kissed my cheek. I froze of his touch and cold voice

“Hi”

“How´s our daughter doing?” he asked me while he laid a hand on my stomach. I´m six months pregnant. It has been a difficult pregnancy. I´ve felt sick a lot and been really tired.

“she´s fine today” I answered.

“Good. I´m here for Christopher. It´s time for his training” my heart sunk. Not again

“Oh” was all I could say before the two of them where gone and I was left alone.

A couple of minutes later Brandon, Jake and Alex walked out to me.

“Hi” I said as they sat down at the grass

“Hi!” Jake said with a big smile

“Do you guys know what he will do to Christopher today?” I asked while my eyes landed on the pond and the yellow and red flowers around it.

“No, sorry… he never told us. He said it was top secret” Brandon said whit a sad smile

“Oh” I said while a tear fell out from my eyes

“How is he doing?” Jake asked

“Christopher?” I asked surprise

“Yeah”

“He is… different. Not my baby boy anymore. Today he snapped a worm into pieces” I said sad.

“Oh… he is getting worse?” Alex asked

“Yes. Every time he gets more of the demon blood he gets worse. I don´t know what to do anymore. Last time he attacked me, what if he attacks the new baby when she arrives?” I asked afraid

The three of them looked at me sad and I stood up and walked inside while the tears fell from my eyes. The baby kicked and I massage my belly while sat down in my bedroom and thought back to my old life. My old friends and Jace. It was five years since I saw him last. For all I know he could be dead or happy with someone else. Stop it Clary! You left him. you didn´t want him anymore, remember. But I did. I wanted him. I was just hurt. Five years since I last saw Izzy, Simon and Alec and it was ten years since I saw my mother and Luke. Last time I was in New York I didn´t have time to visit them. And perhaps that was good. I fell to the bed and cried myself to sleep with a certain golden boy in my thoughts

Jace

Five fucking years have we spent looking for Clary, again. It´s like she just disappear into dust. After five years there should be some kind of trace after her. But maybe she doesn´t want to be found? Maybe she is happy with the life she has? Married to her brother and fooling around with the rest of the guys of that group. But seriously, she kissed me! And I need my Clary back. It´s been ten years since we really was together. It´s my fault she is gone. I messed up big time ten years ago.

“Hey Jacey babe” a high fake voice awoke me from my thoughts. Uuuugh! Elsie. Elsie is my girlfriend. She is… something. A mundane girl I found a couple of months ago at Pandemonium.

“Hi babe. What´s up?” I said with a fake smile to her face

“Alec and Magnus is back...” she told me. And I flew up knocking the chair to the ground and ran towards the entrance.

“Alec!” I said as I was close. He turned around with a goofy smile and a tan.

“Parabatai!” he greeted me and made a face as he saw Elsie walking towards them

“Who are you?” Magnus asked with a big smile on

“Elsie, Jace´s girlfriend” she told them in a high voice. I saw Izzy roll her eyes at her. They didn´t get along.

“Girlfriend?” Alec asked. Disbelief clears in his voice

“Yes!” she said and walked through the entrance door and soon she was out and gone. Maybe she walked home.

“So… How was the honeymoon?” Izzy asked and raised her eyebrows. Alec blushed at this and Magnus laughed and kissed him on the cheek. There were times like this I missed Clary the most. Times like this she should be here and enjoy the happiness of our friends. It was four months since Magnus and Alec had their wedding. I was obviously best man and I know Magnus had wanted Clary to be his best girl.

“It was amazing! The honeymoon suit in London was dull so I pimped it up with glitter! We did a lot of things in Europe and rented a boat and sailed alongside of Egypt. It was amazing” Magnus told us. We all smiled

“It good to have you back” I told them

“It´s good to be back. Any news about Clary?” Alec asked me and I just shook my head

“Not a word. It´s like she has disappear” I told them

“Do you want to keep looking?” Magnus asked me

“Why would I want to stop?”  I answered him

“I just thought maybe you were happy with this other girl” he told me and I shook my head

“I will do a tracking spell the first thing in the morning, but now I need to sleep in my own bed” he said and they walked back outside and towards their apartment.

“It´s times like this I miss her the most…” Izzy said

“Yeah… I miss her too” I confessed and looked at my sister as she entered the kitchen. Probably starting cooking something poisoned and I soon after walked back to my room.

I was pacing back and forth in the library. Magnus hold Clary´s Morgenstern ring she once got of me while we thought we were brother and sister. I promised her then that I would never ever hurt her. A couple of months later I broke her heart.

Magnus was chanting something on Latin while we looked through the books for the thousands times. And suddenly Magnus quieted down and I met his eyes they were sad

“I can´t find her on this earth. Sebastian is either using a big and powerful glamour or they isn´t on this earth” he told us. I heard Izzy gasped and I felt my heart cringe at the thought

“You mean she is somewhere like heaven or hell?” Alec asked

“Probably more like Hell” Magnus said and fell back into his chair. Clary´s necklace with the Morgenstern ring lay on the mahogany table.

She was probably in hell…