A Mortal Instrument Fanfic

The kiss

Jace

Her words stung him like a blow. She was right. He had left her. Once when he died and a second time when he cheated on her.

“But…” He started

“No buts! You left me remember?” she said and stood up from the bed only to double over in pain

“Clary! Take it easy, you still aren´t healed” he said

 “I don´t care!” she said as she stomped out of the infirmary.

Jace found he alone in the room. His thoughts were spinning like crazy. He hadn´t dared to follow Clary. He sank down on the mattress of the bed and break down. The boy, who never cried, cried once again. He cried for the love he throwed away, he cried for his love, for his siblings, for Clary´s lost. But most of all he cried of the image of her limp body on the bathroom floor covered in blood with his dagger in her stomach.

It was around midnight when Jace left the infirmary and was walking back to his room. He passed Clary´s room and heard soft sobs coming there. He sighed and kept going until he was outside his room. he opened his door just to close it again to run back to Clary´s room. He slowly opened the door to find her lying in bed hugging a pillow while she cried.

“Are you allright?” he asked as he walked in her room and closed the door. She looked up from the pillow and dried her tears

“No..” she said slowly “I am not”

“What´s the matter?” he asked as he sat down on her bed

“Everything is my fault..”

“No it´s not” he said as he took her cold hand in his warm one

“Yes… I killed my brother and my son. My daughter died because of me. Brandon, Jake and Alex disappear, I don´t even know where they are…” she said in a small voice

“When they leaved they were going to Los Angeles institute” Jace said as he ran a hand through his golden hair

“Oh” clary whispered. There was a long silence between them

“Jace?” she suddenly said, looking up at him

“Yes?”

“Can you hold me tonight?”

“Yeah, of course” he said. He pulled his shoes of and was climbing in to the bed later to pull Clary close to him. He smelled her hair, Strawberry and vanilla. They laid so for just a couple of minutes. Clary´s head on Jace´s chest

“I still love you…” she suddenly said absentminded.

“What?” he asked. As if he had heard her say something crazy

“I never stopped” she sigh “All those years… I wished it was you who I was waking up with, that it was you who was training our son… It was the life we were supposed to have” she explained

“Until I ruined it…” he said in a sad tone

“Right… why did you do it?”

“Honesty… I don´t know, I felt lonely…”

“Oh…”

“But I soon realized how stupid I was. I lost the only girl I have ever loved…. And still love… Clary, I would do anything for you to be happy again. I look at you and you seams okay, but I can see in your eyes the pain. I wish you would just talk to me, explain to me what he did to you”

“Someday I will… but for tonight, can you just kiss me like you used to?” she begged. Jace smiled and bowed his head down to her until their lips met. There was like it never had been anytime apart. As if the last ten years didn´t matter. They fit perfectly together. Clary giggled and draped her arm around his torso and fell asleep