Goodbye lullaby

Chapter 5

Jisoo

Months have passed. We were able to release our album successfully. We were able to bag a lot of group endorsements as well as individual campaigns. We are now living in our dreams.

Later on Rosé was able to finally release her solo which was also a success. And I finally got my drama career moving just like what i always wanted.

After that night everything seemed going back to like how it was use to be though I could still sense some crazy sexual tension between Jennie and Lisa. But Jennie was already good at avoiding it.. and Lisa on the other hand still have that stoic mask on except I usually caught her staring at Jennie. She's really good at hiding her true feelings in public but not on my watch. Not with Jisoo Kim.

Our online concert was the biggest stepping stone of our careers for we were able to perform the songs of our album and also Rosé's solo. Everyone was killing it even the productions. But Jennie.. she took everyone by storm. She did not just took the crown and owned it but she crushed it into pieces setting a very high standard making other artist impossible to reach. Her song that was already 2 years old broke charts world wide, re-entering and dethroning new songs in just a snap. She is indeed a legend and I am very proud of her.

Despite having that power and fame. She still remained true to herself. She still remained the Jennie I knew since the beginning of our journey.

Currently I'm heading home hoping for a relaxing night after a long day. But when i opened the door I was stunned to smell delicious aroma coming from the kitchen making my tummy growl. And there I found Jennie busy mixing some stuff into the boiler. She was still wearing her business attire covered by our apron.

"Yummyyyyy!" I exclaimed startling her making me laugh wickedly.

"Jesus Chu!!! You scared the shit out of me!" She shouted making me laugh even more.

"I'm sorry Jen you were too busy cooking you didn't even heard the door." I explained in between laughs.

"You are so evil! No food for you!" She said while turning the stove off.

"What?! Noooooo! I'm sorry! I was just joking around" not this delicious fooooddddd.

She turned to me with an evil smirk on her face. "And I even cooked your favorite .. how disappointing."

I hugged her tight almost throwing myself and pleading. "Nooo mandu I know im stupid I didn't mean to do that to you... you know how much I love you right? Please forgive me!!!!" While kissing her on the cheeks repeatedly making her giggle.

"What is going on here?" We stopped messing around and turned to the stunned Rosé and a bit pissed off Lisa?

Hmmm.. then an evil idea popped in my head. Smirking I draw Jennie closer to me then answered Rosé. "My mandu cooked me my favorite dish, i was just so happy." Stressing the "my" making Lisa raise her brows. That's right, show me some more emotions.

"Which she cannot eat." Jennie said teasingly. "Any takers?"

"Definitely me." Rosé answered instantly while almost leaping towards the high stool.

"Lisa?" Jennie asked the younger one who remained at the doorway.

"Thanks. I'm not hungry." She answered shortly with a small smile that couldn't even reach her eyes. "Chae I'll just wait for you in my pad." She turned to Rosé before glancing at us.  "Bye guys." And then she just left.

"Well that was.. awkward." I commented after the long silence as we watched Lisa walked away.

I turned to Jennie who's still looking at the doorway almost pleading for Lisa to comeback. Her face says it all. She's hurt. Again.

"Jen?" I called out making her compose herself and plaster that TV smile we knew.

"Let's eat?" She said before turning away and gathered the food she prepared.

I turned to Rosé who followed Jennie's every movement with sadness in her eyes.

We ate while chatting trying to light up the mood. And just like that all was forgotten. Atleast that's how they want it to look like.

Jennie

Things are better and looking up for me. I love the adrenaline, the excitement and the tiredness of my body. It helps me sleep every night. Having no pause in my life made me go on and move on.

I'm a workaholic that's what everybody says but if only they knew why...

"Jen move a little closer to the right." I complied. "Okay good. Now give me fierce. That's it! You're amazing!"

Amazing..

That's what everybody thinks. If only they knew how empty I felt.

"Okay and we're done! Great job everybody!" The photographer called out. I smiled as the staff surround me removing pieces of my clothing, my props and handing me water. "Jennie you are a Queen! You made my job easier I'm telling you!"

"Thank you so much." I said while smiling and giving him a handshake.

"Till the next campaign?"

"Definitely." I responded before my manager escorted me towards my dressing room.

"We're done with Calvin next stop is Gentle Monster." He updated me with my schedule as my make up artist removed and redo my make up for my next shoot.

"I don't know how you did it but as always you did great even with just 2hrs of sleep." My make up artist said while doing wonders.

"I was getting a hang of it." Liar.

"Your schedule is so packed it made your manager dizzier than you." She teased making me smile. "I heard you didn't turn down not a single one of the offers even if it causes your off days."

"Yup. I was grateful and blessed for them to trust me so who am I to turn down such good deals." Another lie.

Again.. if only they knew..

"You are not human. You didn't even feel nor look tired."

"Maybe I'm not.. maybe I'm a Robot, an empty can." I said with a smile. Making her pause and looked at me in the eyes before finally laughing.

"Didn't take you as a joker Jen." She commented.

It was never meant a joke. But she didn't know that..

Shutting off my emotions made me feel less human.

And I'm used to it.