Goodbye lullaby

Chapter 7

Rosé

"What do you mean you can't find it? I put it in your bag before I went home unnie." I held my phone using my shoulders as I unlock the door of our apartment.

"It's not here Rosie.. I swear." Jennie answered. I heard objects being moved and falling making me smile picturing her scrunched brows and cute puffy cheeks. "I'm sure it's just there." I answered as I heard her sigh in frustration.

I leaned on the wall as I wait for her to finally find her missing bear hairpin. Yup. She was frustrated because of a fucking hairpin when she can just easily buy hundreds of it in the store. "Oopsie.." i heard in the other line making me smirk. "Soo... you found it didn't you?"

"Yup.. hihi."

"And it's just in the bag. Like I said it would. Right?"

"Hihi..yuppp.." she answered making me roll my eyes while smiling. Walking inside the apartment heading towards the living room. "You owe me unnie."

"I'll cook lunch for you." She immediately said making me shake my head. No one would believe that Jennie Kim the badass main rapper in our group is cute as a fur ball when you get to know her deeper. She is indeed have this crazy duality which made her even unique and perfect. "I can't wait!" I answered.

"Haha. How convenient for you! I'll see you tomorrow !" She said.

"See you unnie. Rest well.." i answered before ending the call. I stared at my phone with a stupid smile on my face making me shake my head. What the hell's wrong with me.. I can't be falling for her..

"You look like an idiot.."

"Jesus!" My phone almost fell on the floor as I held my chest and turned to the psycho who almost gave me a heart attack. "Lisa! What the fuck!?" She was sitting comfortably on the sofa staring at me with a blank face.

"It's not my fault you didn't notice me nor the TV was on. You were too busy talking to someone and staring at your phone with heart eyes." She answered bluntly.

I cleared my throat while avoiding her eyes. "What are you saying. It was just Jennie unnie asking for her hairpin."

"Hmm" she answered making me feel uneasy. I walked towards the kitchen not bothering to respond. With shaky hands I opened the cooler and got some cold water. Why am I so guilty I didn't do anything wrong..  I was just comforting Jennie cause Lisa is being an ass, doing what all the good friends will do, and a shoulder to lean on as she cries every night.

"Chaeyong..." Lisa's voice draw me out of my battling thoughts making me turned to her. She stood at the entrance of the kitchen with a serious look on her face almost reading my mind.

"What?" I asked trying to ignore that sick pit on my stomach.

"Correct me if I'm wrong.. cause I can't help notice your growing closeness to Jennie. You.. don't have feelings for her.. right?" She asked looking at me straight in the eyes.

I gulped then avoided her eyes as I returned the water bottle inside the cooler. Fuck it. "And.. what if I have indeed grew feelings for her? What will you do about it?" Facing her again as i walked nearer and leaned on the counter. I saw her expressionless face turned red as she clenched her jaw and her angry brown orbs sizing me up. I rolled my eyes and moved closer towards her looking her dead in the eyes. "You don't have the right to be mad here Lisa.. you were the one who pushed her away.. I was on your side before cause I thought you were just protecting her.. but now all I can see is you were just protecting yourself. She was ready to be with you but you end up breaking her. So don't give me that look like you wanted to kill me cause you lost your rights to get jealous and protective the moment you put her in the least of you priorities."

"Fuck you Chaeng. I thought you were my friend. You know what my real feelings are! I fucking told you every bit of it and trusted you!" She said with a clenched jaw.

"See?! Why are we having this conversation? Why are you reacting this way? You wanted to let her go.. Lisa even if it wasn't me someday she'll meet someone who could make her feel special and loved again. Don't tell me you'll react this way every time someone will try to take your place. You ignored her, ghosted her like she was nothing. She doesn't deserve someone who's coward as you!" And that was her breaking point as I felt the stinging pain on my face as she slapped me then grabbed the collar of my jacket. I smirked at her provoking her more.

"I'm a coward?! What about you huh?! Atleast I have the courage to show how precious she is for me before while you kept your feelings for Jisoo and locked it in! Jennie is not a substitute for your what ifs Chaeyong!!!" She said with gritted teeth.

My blood boiled as the substitute rang on my ears. I pushed her harshly. "Substitute?! What makes you think she is just a substitute for me?! You don't know my feelings Lisa!"

"HEY!! WHAT THE HELL'S GOING ON IN HERE!!?" Jisoo's angry voice echoed within the four corners of the kitchen. Lisa and I remained silent, she looked at me like she wanted to take off my head. And I wanted to do the same.

"Fuck this." She said before walking out on us.

"HEY! Lisa!" Jisoo called her but she stormed out of the room without looking back. She turned to me with worry. "What is wrong with you guys?"

"Nothing unnie don't worry." I answered with a smile that I could manage.

"Chae-"

"I'm going to bed." Cutting her off. Leaving her in the kitchen with scrambled thoughts. I'm sorry Jisoo.. I just can't talk about it right now. I thought I was in love with her but .. being with Jennie, having her close and getting to know her more feels like a breath of fresh air .. it was wonderful and toxicating .. no wonder Lisa fell hard for her, its too bad she didn't see how lucky she is to call Jennie hers. She just wasted her opportunity.

I heavily sighed as I slumped myself in my warm soft bed. Massaging my red cheeks. Damn that girl could hit. Lisa was never violent but when it comes to Jennie she'd go crazy. Come to think about it this is the first we ever fought and worst its for a girl.

But its worth it...

She's worth to fight for.

Am i a terrible friend for that?