Goodbye lullaby

Chapter 10

"Seriously Jen you'll get in trouble for always coming here." Irene commented with worry in her voice. She still looked horrible due to her current break up but at least now she's trying to get back to her feet. Since she stopped being an idol she's now planning on opening her own clothing line which I encourage her to do so just to keep her mind busy.

"You will not get rid of me that easily and besides I'm just checking if you're still breathing." I teased while filling up my glass with wine.

"As much as I hate you getting into trouble I'm still thankful for your presence.." she smiled sadly.

"Oh i know.." I answered back with a smile making her eyes roll.

"She.. tried calling me.." she opened up making me straighten my back and look at her.

Sadness is evident in her beautiful face as she drink the last contents of her glass before filling it up again.

"Let me guess.. you avoided her.." i said making her nod.

"I don't want to hear her voice cause I might not take it and threw all my sacrifices away for nothing.." Then tears rolled down on her flawless cheeks making me move and hug her tight. "Why does it hurt so bad..." she whispered a question that i myself couldn't answer.

"Cry it all out.. till you feel numb... that's what I've been doing for a long time.." I whispered back.

She looked at me with pain in her eyes while i smiled sadly. "Jen.."

"I shut my emotions down in order to save her and myself... it was hard at first but now... I couldn't even feel the difference of being alive and dead.."

She stared at my lifeless eyes making her gasp as her tears continued to shed.

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After comforting Irene I decided to head home on my long deserted pad. No one knew about this place except me and Lisa.. it was supposed to be our home. Now as I entered the pad even if it was full of luxurious furnitures and was beautifully designed, it was still cold.. empty.

I heavily sighed before throwing my bag and keys on the couch then picked up the remote pressing the button making the floor to ceiling curtain move revealing the beautiful night lights of soul. This was Lisa's favorite part of the pad, the floor to ceiling window facing our living room.

Our..

Now its just me..

The moon and stars used to calm me now as i gaze upon the night sky it only made me lonelier. Pushing myself up I climbed the glass stairs and visit our supposed masters bedroom. Turning all the lights not bothering to look at the empty cold bed. I hastily removed my clothes leaving them on the floor as i walked towards our walk in closet and bathroom.  I filled the big tub with warm water and submerged myself relieving the tensions of my muscles. Closing my eyes as i tried to escape this cruel world i live in.

"WHAT THE FUCK JENNIE!!!"

Someone pulled me harshly out of the tub that I didn't even notice that i drifted to sleep. I groggily look at the person who saved me from my stupidity, that made me even more speechless and frozen into place as i stared at those familiar doll like eyes that i miss so much. Those brown eyes is now in pain and fear as tears rolled down on her soft flawless cheeks. Her mouth is moving but I can't seem to hear what she's saying cause i was too stunned seeing her here.. with me... am i dead?

She lift me up not minding getting wet in the process and hurriedly walked towards the bed. She gently put me down before running towards the bathroom grabbing towels and robes. In seconds she was already in front of me covering my naked body with the robe and wrapped me with towel. She cupped my face looking directly at my eye.

"Jen.. Jennie.. please.. tell me are you in pain? Please talk to me.. God!! I'm gonna call 911-"

"Are.. are you real?" Cutting her off as I leaned on her hands cupping my cheeks.

I was shocked when she kissed me passionately instead of answering. I felt her tears mixing mine as I indulged myself to this intoxicating feeling, making my long cold heart warm. Hearing her whispers of sorry repeatedly on my lips before claiming my lips once again.

Then I just cried... feeling her warmth once again seemed overwhelming... and i felt scared..

She laid me down, hugged me tight while raining soft kisses on my forehead, cheeks and lips. She kept whispering sorry as I buried my face on her chest. Some part of my heart still can't believe that she's here with me.. maybe my mind is now playing tricks on me.. maybe I'm really going crazy.. but feeling her strained breathing as she tried her best to hold her tears but still failing for i could feel warm tears on my forehead and the way she holds me tight were enough to prove that this is all real.. that she is finally with me.. finally home..

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I woke up next morning with a massive headache, couldn't blame myself though.. i was crying literally all night till i fell asleep. But I remembered Lisa's arms around me made me sit up and scan the empty room. Yup ... I therefore conclude that I'm completely out of my mind.. laying down as the emptiness consumed me again.. i should have known that it was too good to be true.. feeling my heart broken in pieces again, i forced myself to go back to sleep thanking God for the headache for I was able to doze off in no time.

Light warm touches caress my cheeks and hair making me seek it out more, leaning at the warmth of her hand. I heard a familiar giggle then a soft feather like kiss was planted on my forehead making me slowly open my eyes.

And there she was.. the love of my life.. my angel looking down on me with a beautiful smile. Even though her doll like eyes seemed puffy and tired she still managed to look perfect.

"Good morning nini.." she said with a smile before kissing my lips. She looked worried when I didn't respond. Am I dreaming again? "What's wrong love?" She asked while feeling my forehead checking my temperature before cupping my cheeks and looked at me directly in the eyes. She maybe saw my hesitation making her sigh heavily before claiming my lips again. This time she kissed me with so much emotion almost marking me hers that made me moan. She took the opportunity of inserting her tongue while getting on top of me and just like that my body respond to her as i wrap my arms around her neck pulling her closer and matched her kisses till I heard her moan too. She held my hips and pushed my legs apart making me wrap it on her waist. We kissed till our lungs hurt due to lack of oxygen but Lisa didn't care cause she still explored my mouth, biting and sucking my lips like a hungry child.

"I'm real..." she whispered while looking directly at my eyes. "I'm real nini... I'm home.."