Goodbye lullaby

Chapter 4

Rosé

"Okay. That's it for today you can all go home and rest now." Teddy oppa said as he gathered the lyric sheets and compiled them. I saw Jennie and Jisoo standing up, and started gathering their things.

"Do you have plans today Jendeukie?" I heard Jisoo asked.

"No more actually.. why? What do you have in mind ?" She answered then I saw Jisoo smirked.

"Good then you're coming with me!" She said with excitement in her voice. She suddenly turned to me and Lisa. "In fact you're all coming with me."

I felt Lisa stiffen at my side. We knew that she had us cornered, the elephant in the room is long overdue and I could see Jisoo's determination to extinguish that.

Gulping the bile that stuck in my throat. We helplessly followed her when she dragged Jennie out of the studio.

"Chaeng... " Lisa whispered at my side. Nervousness is evident in her voice. "I don't think I could do this.. atleast not now.. I-I'm not ready yet.." she looked helpless and I couldn't help but felt bad for her. Poor lisayah.. grabbing her hand I squeezed it lightly assuring her that she got me.. always..

"Don't worry .. you can do this.. we can do this.. we can face them together. Just tap my leg if you really need to get away." She nod in response though a bit hesitant.

"Thank you Chaeng.."

We walked hand in hand as we follow the older girls outside the building. Jisoo is now skipping happily while dragging Jennie.

God help us survive this night..

Jisoo

"I miss this!" I exclaimed happily breaking the tension that have been suffocating us since we got in the apartment. "Us.. complete.. having dinner like a family again."

"You're right Chu.. this is nice." Jennie agreed with a smile as she continued eating her meal.

Rosé seemed not enjoying her meal which is very unusual while Lisa is just playing with her food, mixing her veggies.

These two are indeed weird. Luckily Jennie seemed alright with this. In fact she was comfortable enough to eat and open topics to discuss. She seemed unbothered unlike the younger girls. Maybe she really did moved on.. and I'm glad cause that only means one thing.. our mandu is back.. and i hope she'll stay this time around.

Jennie and I talked for the whole time while Rosé and Lisa stayed silent in their seats, only answer when asked. That really pisses me off cause I saw Jennie trying while they are just sitting there like some stupid statues.

I harshly put down my fork on the table, startling them in the process. "Alright! I had enough! What's going on with you two?" Pointing at them both. "Cause its obvious that you guys didn't want to be here."

"We're just tired Unnie.." Rosé answered but I knew she's lying.

"We all are. And yet Me and Jennie are trying to make this work." I answered back not holding my anger.

"Chu.. let it go." Jennie said softly.

"No! I let it go long enough!! And I couldn't take watching this group slowly growing apart much longer!! What happened to us? Huh? We used to treat each other like sisters. We were more than family... and now .. I don't even know what we are.." i said defeatedly. My tears are threatening to fall.

Silence reigned in the four corners of our luxurious kitchen. Not until..

"This is all my fault.." Jennie said almost half whisper. "If I didn't fell in love with Lisa none of this could have happened.."

I heard Lisa gasp. Turning to her direction I saw shocked written in her face as she look at Jennie who's just looking down, seemed shy or ashamed to her sudden confession. Even Rosé was stuck in her place.

I already knew she fell hard for Lisa but she never got the chance to admit that nor voice it out loud. In fact, they never got the chance to say those three words to each other. Ofcourse they acted like a lovesick couple around us back then but they tend to say "I like you" or "I care for you" instead of "I love you's". They were not brave enough.. or atleast Lisa wasn't brave enough.

"But things will change now I promise.. I wouldn't want anything but to have you guys back.. to have our lives back.." Jennie continued now looking at us one by one. Tears already tainted her beautiful face. "Lisa.. I'm sorry if I expected a lot more than you can give.. I should have respected your decision and supported you, cause this was always the life you worked hard and longed for..instead I acted like a selfish brat. I'm sorry.. " while reaching her hand on the table and softly caress it before slowly letting go. Lisa was just stunned to even respond, she just stared at her with tears spilling in her eyes.

"I-ah.." Lisa was struggling to find words but Jen cut her off.

"It's okay.. I'm not asking for an explanation.. I understand..I already understand. I don't want to lose you Lisa.. you mean so much to me..." she turned to each one of us. "You all mean so much to me.. Rosé i love you like a sister and it hurts to see you grow distant on me.. And Chu I know you're trying your hardest to keep this family intact and I was making it hard for you.. I'm sorry... i truly am sorry.. "

Jen covered her face as she sob hard. I immediately hugged her tight. "Hey... its not your fault Jen.. no one is to blame.."

I heard Lisa's painful sobbing and Rosé's gasping. We were all emotional. Then I felt warm arms encircling both of us. It was the younger girls joining our tight comforting hug as we cried.

These girls are my family... and no matter what I will protect them as I can.