Desiderium

Saccharine

Quickly Vie rushes to put away the flowers she didn't sell and pack up her stall. She must already have a plan on where or when we're going.

Why can't we just stay, and ignore him?

I guess it's fine if we move, I don't like this time period anyways.

She grabs my hand and pulls me with her, back to the path, through the trees, past the protection, through the field.

It's sunny again and I know we're in a safe place so I pull my hand from hers.

"I want to stop running, Vie."

She stopped a few feet ahead of me, her back in my direction, she slowly turns her head my way.

"You know we can't."

I've tried convincing her before and she never let me stop running, but I'm serious this time.

"But we've never tried before-" 

I'm surprised as she raises her voice at me.

"There's no need to try Mae!"

She fully faces me now and is glaring at me so harshly that I wonder if she's the same being I saw in the field this morning.

"If he catches you then your life will be no more, that is it, no more Mae, is that what you want?!"

I'm silent because I know she'll hate my answer. She gives a disbelieving scoff and shakes her head.

"You WANT to stop existing?! That's what you want? You want to be away from me? After everything we've been through together you want to disappear as if you never existed?"

I drop my head in shame, the pressure behind my eyes build and I try to take a deep breath but end up shuddering it out. 

My chest hurts.

My simple, small reply, comes out through tears.

"I, I'm just so tired Vie."

The tears won't stop and I'm done trying to wipe them away. The pain in my chest rises and I sit on the grass in hopes it'll subside,

I clutch the grass beneath me and look at her thunderously angry form.

"I can't keep doing this, it's been so, so long," I try to find words to convince her but can barely seem to grasp my own thoughts, "I love you, I do, you know I do... but I'm not like you, I can't do this forever."

I still feel her anger, her wrath at my words, as she speaks I feel her sharp tongue, lashing me.

"You can and you will!"

The sun beating down on me feels too hot, like it's trying to take all the moisture from my body. It's so hard to breathe.

With pleading eyes I try to make her understand my thoughts, but she won't, she can't, she's not human.

With a trembling voice I plea.

"Why can't you let me go Vie?"

I look up at her and she gives me a sinister saccharine smile.

"Because you're mine."

With those words, the sun's glare, my emotions, and everything just became so overwhelming I could hardly breathe at all. My chest feels so tight. My lungs refuse to expand.

The last thing I see is Vie's conflicted expression, then my world goes dark.

I feel a cool cloth on my head as I open my eyes. It's dark now and I wonder how long I've been out.