"I'm alone, I'm finally alone."
A light shower mats your body standing safely behind the railings of the bridge. It's cold without your scarf, pinpricks displacing stirring thoughts; however, you knew from the beginning that it was always impossible to preserve this dream void of entropy.
You shyly smile against the rain, tentative to embrace the placidity. No Kageyama, no voices, no mistakes. Tilting your chin up, you survey the gray slate in the sky silently weeping.
"I don't know what to do anymore."
Raindrops cleanse subconscious tears trailing down the sides of your face. Is this it? Is it finally over?
Your gaze averts to the lustrous sheen of snowflakes descending as you extend your arm to meet the ice. Its fragility melts at your slightest touch and slips between your fingers as it forms minute ripples on the river's surface. One foot after the other, you climb onto the ledge unwavering, refusing to look back.
If only you could erase the red tainting the past. If only you could convey the pent words that flood your thoughts. If only you could stop.
Its fatigued reflection welcomes your flaws from two hundred feet below.
Come here, she smiles. Come to where it is safe with me.
Safe, safe where it is lonely.
A subtle grin muses at the thought of placidity before you lean against nothingness and plummet, falling behind the past.
Icy water pierces your spine, and yet you take little notice of the pain while you stare at the gradient of pastel baby blue. Chains upon chains uncuff as needles prick your feet. Bubbles do not reach the surface, but you stare finitely at the art of water: water, such a fluid entity, adapting to the conformation of its containment as you further submerge into its embrace.
This is your wish, isn't it?
Everyone is happy, everyone is happy.
Snowflakes, frozen crystals, fracture at contact as you take your last breathes.
It's just as beautiful as you, Tobio
Finally, you close your eyes, choosing to disperse alongside the speckled snowflakes upon the empty canvas.
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Disperse - Kageyama x Reader (Fluff + Angst)
FanficA Kageyama x Reader (Angst + Fluff) By C Warnings: Suicide and Depression, Insecurities, Profanity Notes: 1. I accept constructive criticism with editorial issues and revisions 2. Updates will arbitrarily vary depending on my schedule 3. Do not re...
