We Found Love (Short Story)

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I went out of my room today. I'm planning to go to the garden. Hoping to see some butterflies.

Madaming pwedeng gawin dito. Merong game room. Garden. Library. But of course. There's someone guarding the place.

So you won't kill yourself.

I breathe in and out when I inhaled the fresh morning air. Calming. And peaceful.

Nakakita ako ng ibang tao sa benches. Some are with their family. And some are alone.

Pumunta ako sa pinaka-malayong bench kung saan kaunti lang ang mga tao. I sat there and didn't mind my surroundings.

Feels like life is good. But isn't.

I was feeling myself when someone interrupted it.

"What's up?"

A deep-voiced man sat just one seat away from me. But we're on the same bench.

"Anong kailangan mo?"

I didn't bother to look at him. I have no plans of making friends here. And talking to someone like we know each other.

"Nothing. So how are you?"

That's when I looked at him. No one ever asked me if I'm doing good. Except for my psychiatrist. She's doing it for work.

I looked at him with my shocked face and he's smiling at me.

"Don't talk to me as if you care."

Ganun naman talaga. Kunwari may pake sila. They will show you that they care. But at the end, they will just use you. And leave you.

I stood up and continued walking all the way back to my room.

My heart is beating so fast and I feel like my heart is going to burst.

It's coming back. It's coming back.

No. No. You're okay. I'm okay.

Sapphire, you're okay. Calm the fuck down.

Hindi ko na pinansin yung mga nabubunggo ko at patuloy lang naglalakad.

I opened my room and closed the door. There's no purpose of locking it since there's no lock.

I touched my butterflies and calmed myself down.

I looked up at the sky and closed my eyes.

They did this to me. They ruined me.

It's all their fault.

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