Untouchable Sequel: A broken heart

Chapter 21

I layed on the bed and tried to sleep, but i couldn't. It was almost morning anyway, but my mum had given me permission to sleep a little longer because of today. I tossed and turned, but nothing helped. I couldn't fall asleep. Suddenly i hear a knock on my window. I wondered who it could be at this time. I walk over to the window and pull the curtains aside. Then i see Suriya standing on my balcony. I open the door to the balcony and walk out to him. 

"Suriya what are you doing here?" I ask him. 

In a split-second, Suriya grabs me and pushes me toward the window. He starts to make out with me. It tickles and feels amazing. I knew that it was wrong, but it felt amazing. As much as i want him to stop, i didn't want to push him away. It felt amazing. He had gotten better at kissing, and he was so much more strong. He moves his lips down to my neck and starts to kiss me passionately. I got turned on instantly. I tried to take my hands up to push him away, but i didn't want to. I wanted him to keep going. I couldn't control it. I didn't want him to stop.

"Suriya this is wrong we shouldn't do this,"  I say while moaning. 

No no no no no!!!! I shout. 

It gives a shock in me, and then i wake up. I realize it was a dream. I look at my clock, and it says 7:03 a.m. 

Harish appears in the doorway. 

"You okay?" Harish asks. 

"Yeah, just a bad dream," I reply. I felt water on my chin. I took my hand up to my chin and dried it. I realize i had been drooling. 

I felt awful. How could i do this to Harish? Why did i have this dream? I felt angry, and guilty at the same time. 

"Krish came over with the invitation to his birthday. He asked if you could go over to Suriya's house with his invitation?" Harish asks looking at me. 

"Yeah, sure i can do that!" I smile at Harish pretending everything is okay. 

"Hey...you okay? You look tired? Did you not sleep well last night?" Harish asks and comes closer to me. 

"I had trouble falling asleep," I say fixing and yawn. 

"You sure you're okay?" Harish asks and sits beside me on my bed. 

"I'm sure," I say. Harish comes closer to me and kisses me on my forehead. 

 Harish was about to get up when i stopped him. 

"Wait...i need to apologize." I suddenly let out. 

I slowly take the quilt off me and move over to Harish. I get up and sit on his lap. I take his face in my hands. 

Harish gently kissed me on my lips. I smiled at him.

"I just wanted to say sorry. I don't know what happened yesterday. I was in a mood. Since i saw Advika i just feel unattractive, and the way you looked at me yesterday..... made me feel like you only liked me for....you know....my body." I say not being able to look in Harish's eyes. 

I take my hands down and look down. Harish takes my face in his hands. 

"Hey....stop. That's so not true. You know that. I am sorry that i made you feel that way. You know that's far from the truth, right?" Harish says, pushing my hair away from my eyes. 

"Yeah, i know. I am sorry. I don't know what going on with me. I have these sudden moments of emotions. It's weird. I am scared Harish." I say getting down. 

"Hey hey hey....look at me. Look at me. I am here okay? You don't have to go through this alone. I will always be here. I promise." Harish says while trying to get me to look at him. 

I hug him tightly. 

I couldn't be more in love with him. He was so supportive and caring. 

"Do you want me to go over there with the invitation?" Harish asks.

"No, if she's going to be in the group i need to be able to talk to her, and get to know her," I say while slowly letting go of Harish. 

I get off Harish and get up from the bed. 

"Talk to me next time, okay? That's why i am here." Harish says and gets up from my bed. 

I nod. He gives a kiss on my forehead and walks out of the room. 

Later that day...

I was in front of Suriya's house. I felt nervous for some reason. Memories come back from the last time i was here. I took my finger up to the doorbell and rang without thinking more of it. I didn't want these negative feelings to get in the way. Suddenly the door handle moved. Then the door opens. 

Advika opens the door. She is only wearing a white towel around her. It looked like she had just showered. Her hair was still wet. She was dripping. 

"Divya...hi. Suriya's in the shower if you want to come...." Advika starts. 

I instantly felt bad. Did they shower together? Were they already that close? A fit of anger spreads in my body again. 

I interrupt her. 

"No, i am sorry. I actually just wanted to give you this." I say handing out Krish's invitation. I try smiling at her, but it's so hard for me. I'm was so angry. 

"Should i tell Suriya you came by, or?" Divya asks me. 

"No, no not at all. I just came to give you the invitation." I reply right away. I didn't want 

"Okay, then. I'll see you." Advika says, and getting ready to close the door. 

"Yeah, bye." I turn my body around and walk away. I hear her closing the door behind me. 

I take slow steps. It was some time since i had been alone. For the first time in a long time, i felt different, like things were gonna change. I didn't like Advika. Something about her felt bad or wrong. I didn't wanna feel this way. I wanted to be happy for Suriya. Why did i feel like that? I hated this feeling.