Untouchable Sequel: A broken heart

Chapter 23

Dear Diary!

I got a panic attack today. It felt like all my emotions were about to erupt. Like i was crying for all the people on earth, and many more. I never wanna feel that way again. It was so uncomfortable, and scary. But as always Harish was there. Harish always seem to be there when i needed him. God, i love him!!! 

The doctor told me to rest, so that's what i am doing. Currently, i am sitting on the couch in the hall, and writing in you. I am already bored.  My friends were in the basement finding decorations for Kris's birthday party. I wanna join them, but they would just tell me to go rest.

I see Suriya coming up from the basement. 

"Hey, you!" Suriya says smiling at me. 

"Hey...have you guys found anything?" I ask excitedly. 

He comes up beside me and sits on the couch beside me. 

"Yeah, they have. Harish wanted me to ask you if you wanted coffee or tea or anything?" Suriya says looking over at the kitchen. 

"I can make my own coffee or tea," I say shaking my head while smiling. 

"Well, it's your boyfriend's words, not mine. He's just trying to help." Suriya says looking away from me again.

"He always does," I reply looking down at my diary.

A silence spreads. 

"Hey, can i ask you something?" I say placing my diary on the table. 

"Yeah sure?" Suriya replies and looks at me. 

"Why did you leave today? You left the hospital, and you didn't come back." I ask him. 

Suriya instantly turns his head the other way. 

"Advika needed me," Suriya says, looking at the floor. 

"You're lying" I instantly say. 

"Oh yeah?" Suriya looks up at me and smiles. 

"You can't look at me in the eyes while lying. You never could." I reply. Suriya smiles and looks away. 

"After Harish had called the ambulance the first person he called was me. He wanted me to be there. I came as quickly as i could. And then i saw you...there were four doctors around you. Your whole body was shaking. Your eyes were all white. And seeing you like that...i couldn't do anything. I just stood there...I froze...I couldn't move. And then i was wondering if it was me, and not Harish i would have done the same. I would just have stood there, and then it would all have been my fault...if something happened..." Suriya says while looking at the floor. 

 A tear runs down his cheek. He quickly dries it away.

"Hey...that's not true. Suriya looks at me. Hey....come here. You don't know that. Because it didn't happen. I know you. You're so strong" I move closer to Suriya, but he keeps hiding his face and looking away. 

"I should go," Suriya says, and gets up. He walks towards the door. 

"Suriya, please just talk to me. You can talk to me." I say trying to get up, but my head hurts. I shout after him. 

He opens the door and walks out. He slams the door behind him. 

I hear chattering behind me. Karthik and Krish come up the stairs. 

"What happened? Where is Suriya?" Karthik asks and gets closer to me. 

A tear runs down my cheek.

Krish runs over to me and hugs me from the side. 

"Everything will be okay." Krish whispers. 

I lean into Krish. Krish kisses me on the side of the head.