(William Control) Kiss me, Judas

Part 2

I open my eyes and squinted them.

"Uhh, it's too bright." I glanced over and saw sunlight peaking through. It wasn't that bright, but it sure felt like it. I looked around and I couldn't quite tell where I was. I sat up and was recalling last night. I remember shooting up. Feeling really good. Then felt like I was being carried away. I started to think some more. Will! I remember that guy shooting for me, and giving Jay more stuff so I didn't have to sleep with him. Thank God. But, where did he go? Where did Jay go? Where exactly am I? I'm lost. I got up and noticed I still had my clothes on, even my shoes. This was a good thing. I looked and saw a door. Maybe Jay redid some stuff to his house? I don't know how he could afford it but that's all I can think of. Maybe I crashed somewhere else? I have a lot of questions and no answers. I made my way through the door and noticed a staircase. I didn't think Jay had a stair case. I walked down and noticed I was in a nice looking house. It was very dark, all the Windows were covered. I didn't hear anyone. Where the hell did I crash last night? I noticed a small hallway and walked down. I heard some noises and thought whoever I stayed with last night was probably down here. "Hello?" I called out. I heard the noises stop. I heard a door open and slam very fast. No time after that I saw a shadow start walking down the hallway.

"You're awake I see?" I remembered that voice. I looked and saw Will. He was wearing a black shirt with black pants. He had a towel in his hands wiping something off of them. The towel was dark so I couldn't see what it was exactly.

"Yeah, I didn't know where the hell I was actually. I just thought I crashed at someones house." I giggled at the end. I did that whenever I could ya know?

He smirked. "Jay got pretty messed up. He wasn't used to the strength of that, and I don't think you were either." He threw the towel behind him. "After I shot you up you started to drift in and out. You eventually fell over on me." He chuckled. I blushed like mad, I didn't mean to do that. "Jay and I started laughing. And not long after that he fell over and was out like a light. I picked you up and brought you here. I didn't feel to good about you staying over there." I looked at him stumped.

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to do that. It was some pretty strong stuff, I didn't realize it though." I looked down. Then I wondered why he thought it was better for me to stay with him instead of Jay. I never met him before. "I never met you before though... How come you thought it was better for me to stay with you?" I looked up at him, and he could see the confusion on my face. He walked over to me and put his hand on my back and escorted me into the living room. He began to talk.

"Look, I don't mean to scare you. It's just..." He had this look on his face, I don't really know what you would call it. "If you stayed there, I just felt like something bad would happen. I don't know what though. From Jay, from something else. I'm not sure, I just didn't think you should stay there." I nodded.

"Thank you. I don't know what you think Jay would do though. He's a pretty okay guy." I told him. I didn't want to think of Jay as someone bad. He's never done anything I didn't let him. He went over and sat on the couch and leaned over and had his elbows on his knees, hands holding each other. He looked up at me.

"He is an okay guy, but I don't think you should have to fuck him to pay him." My eyes widened.

"But, I have no other way to pay. He's never forced me to do anything I didn't wanna do. I just usually lie there and he does what he wants until he's done." I looked down. Yeah, I've fucked people for whatever I can. It's the part of being a drug addict. I have no money, I have no job, what can I pay with? My vagina, everyone usually accepts it as payment.

"Well, you won't have to. When you need something, just come to me okay?" I looked at him startled. Come to him, for my drugs? Whatever I want? How could someone be so nice to do that...? Is he tricking me? Does he just want me to fuck him for it instead of Jay because he's the guy that's selling it? I looked over at him and stared hard. He looked up at me and gave me a face like 'what?'

"Why do you say that?" I asked him.

"I don't want you to have to fuck him for drugs. I'd rather just give them to you." He told me. He was sitting up right now and staring at me.

"So... You want me to come to you so I can fuck you?" I asked him seriously. His eyes grew huge.

"No no no no! You can just come to me for whatever drug you need. I mean, I know how it is to have to have something." He looked at me sternly. He meant what he said. I was just shocked by his actions. People don't do this for me. I walked over and sat by him.

"I'm sorry I said that." I put my hands together not knowing what to do with them exactly. I'm not good with stuff like this. People are not good to me. "People... People aren't nice to me. I'm a slut, an addict. I have no Job, nothing." I thought I was gonna start crying. "Thank you so much though. Your kindess is so shocking to me I think you just want something out of me." My tear ducks started to swell. Tears started to pour out. I haven't shared my emotions in a long time. I felt arms wrap around me. I haven't had a humans embrace in such a long time. Not one that actually meant what they said. He hugged me. I just let it all pour out. I started sobbing. It took about 10 minutes for me to calm down. I had quit crying, but he was still holding me. I decided it was time for me to move away from his embrace. I didn't want to. "I'm sorry I cried all over you like a big baby." I tried to chuck out a laugh.

"Everyone needs to shed a tear every-now-and-again." He assured me, and smiled.

"Thank you."

"I mean what I say." He smiled again. That smile made me happy. Everytime I saw him smile I never saw him smile very big. Maybe he didn't like his teeth, I shouldn't like my teeth. I'm sure my breath is horrible.

"I haven't seen my family in a long time. They kicked me out when I started 'abusing'" I told him. I sat back on the couch to relax. "It started with pills, they made me feel better when school got to me. Then I had friends say 'try this! Try that! Oh you'll love some of this if you liked that!' it just went on till it got bad." I knew he was listening carefully not to miss anything.  "I got kicked out. Lost those 'friends' that let me try this and that. Found a few dealer, and people I could sleep with for the drugs I needed." He nodded again. He was purely just listening to me. How long have I actually had a real conversation? "And so, here I am!" I motioned my arms around me. He chuckled and I grinned.

"Things happen, I understand. But now you don't have to worry about that." He got up and was walking down the hall. "I'm gonna go fix you something up that isn't too strong so you'll stay awake. Pretty soon you'll start itching and wanting another fix anyway." I nodded and smiled a big smile. Oh, how I loved my drugs. It was an escape. It calmed me. It relaxed me like no other. I don't know how I got so lucky honestly. I haven't tried to quit, I never saw a point. I should do what makes me happy. I waited a minute or two and Will came back with a needle in his hand and a tie off. He reached for my arm and drew out some of my blood, mixed it with the concoction he had. He injected me and released the tie. I felt it start to go through my veins and it was heavenly. I smiled a huge smile.

"Thank you so much." I told him. He smiled.

"No problem, don't need to wait till you're so eager you can't steady a needle." I giggled and he walked away. "I'm going to go out for a bit. I'll return shortly. Just do whatever you want here." I looked at him oddly. He didn't know me that well.

"I'll just go out for a little and see if I can find some friends. You don't need someone in your house you don't know that well." He looked and me and shook his head.

"You don't need to be going anywhere right now. Don't worry, I'll be back shortly." I nodded. I'm sure he knew I wasn't going to be going to see any friends. And I don't actually have a reason to go look for anything. He walked out the door and I watched it close behind him. I walked away from it and made my way to the couch and flicked on the tv. The news was on. It was talking about murders and people disappearing. Boring, that happens everyday. I flicked it to some show I used to watch. I started to feel drowsy. Maybe he didn't realize I wasn't used to this kinda stuff anyway. My body didn't have any for a pretty good bit till I got to Jay's. It'll be okay to nap.