HIDDEN (D.M)

E X P E C T O P A T R O N U M

After that conversation with Harry I decided to go to the lake and read, maybe it will help to clear my mind. Away from everyone and everything.

I look up to see the stars so bright and big, the cool air hitting my cheeks. I look up in the night sky and close my eyes, taking a deep breath in and out.

I open my book but find it hard to read. To concentrate, all of this is so much for me.

Hermione is not on board with the idea of me being in Dumbledore's army, but frankly so am I.

I told Harry I'll keep it a secret but I need time to think about it, It's not an easy decision for me. Since the dark lord is back and most likely recruiting people for his army I know deep down I'll become a death eater, it's just a matter of time.

I don't want to be a death eater, the idea of me becoming something I deeply hate makes me sick to my core. My father is a death eater, devoted to him. After my mom's passing he's never treated me the same, he would be kind and warm. Now he's cold, distant, and mean.

I know I won't have a choice. But maybe I can help, there will be a time where we will all have to choose between good and evil, I know my choice.

Maybe I can help Potter and the army, I can give them information they seek. I have to keep my name and who I am a secret, why not add this to the pile.

I close my book and decide to just lay in the grass and gather my thoughts instead.

Nobody can know. I can do this, not for me but for everyone. Maybe me being a spy for Dumbledore can help. I'll do everything I can for light to win.

As I come to a decision I stand up and make my way inside the castle, I need to see Harry. I enter and see Harry walking down a hallway, I walk a bit faster to try and catch up to him.

"Harry! Wait" he turns around by the sound of my calling, now standing still waiting for me to catch up to him. I give him a half smile trying to end this conversation as fast as I can. It still hurts to see him.

"Yes." Is all I say, the only words that come out. He gives me a nod, his eyes filling themselves with hope and excitement.

"Meet me outside the great hall ten minutes before lunch starts." He leaves without another word. Now all I want is to write in my journal and sleep.

This whole day has been so exhausting I just want to sleep and let my mind rest. Escape this reality even if it's just a dream. I walk into Atticus' room feeling my eyes get heavier the closer I get to my bed, I look over and see him already sleeping. His features so soft and peaceful, he always looks like an Angel even when he's sleeping.

Feeling too tired to get ready for bed I let my feet drag me to my pillow, plopping down using my feet to take off my shoes. I get under the sheets and finally for what feels like forever I close my eyes and drift into my dream.

*****

I walk over to the great hall ten minutes before lunch starts just like Potter told me to, I can't help but feel anxious at how everyone will react. A Slytherin in Dumbledore's army. I'm guessing since Hermione is not onboard with this I'm the first to be in his army.

I've been doing a lot of first lately..

I see Harry leaning over a window patiently waiting for me, once he hears my shoes tap on the floor he looks up at me. He walks over to me giving me a smile.

"Ready?"

"No. But lead the way" my hands start to sweat, feeling my throat get dry.

We start to walk making turns but come to a stop at a wall. No windows. No rooms. No doors. The hallway isolated from everything, Harry takes a step forward and closes his eyes concentrating on something.