𝐈𝐋𝐘 tobio kageyama

fifteen 🪐 heartbreak

3:47pm.

you walked home from school with kageyama—hands intertwined tightly. your hands swung slightly as you walked, which created a happy atmosphere between the two of you.

"so, what did coach ukai say?" you started up a conversation.

"oh, right." kageyama inhaled softly before replying to your question. "hinata, nishinoya, tanaka and i have to run fifty laps around the gym after practice everyday.. for like, the next two weeks."

your eyes widened with kageyama's words. "wait, what? seriously?!"

"yeah." kageyama huffed, a hint of annoyance in his voice. "it would ruin our volleyball reputations if we ever got caught at a party with alcohol, like for college and stuff, so coach ukai was pissed."

"yeah, but still." you let out a tired yawn in between your words. "if i had to run fifty laps, i'd die. literally. and you have to do it, like everyday? doesn't that add up to like, 500 at the end?"

kageyama let out a small laugh before his reply.

"it won't be that bad. i run everyday anyway."

♡TIME SKIP♡
—january 6th, 6:37pm—
post volleyball practice.

TSUKISHIMA'S POV

"oh my god, i'm gonna fucking die." hinata shrieked tiredly as he ran, enduring the punishment that coach ukai had given them.

"tell me about it." nishinoya huffed, practically wheezing at this point. "this is abuse. we don't deserve this! kageyama was the one that got drunk!"

"shut up! it was an accident!" kageyama managed to breathe out as he ran.

"nishinoya...!" tanaka whined, sounding as if he was crying. "we're such bad senpais! why did we let this happen!"

"shut the fuck up, dumbasses! you put yourselves in this position—and now i'm forced to stay back and watch you guys! deal with it!" daichi exclaimed with irritation, his loud voice echoing throughout the gym. apparently, those four boys were being held accountable for attending a party with alcohol, and honestly, i felt no ounce of guilt for them. they deserved it, those idiots.

yamaguchi had family business to deal with so he didn't show up for practice today. i walked out of the gym by myself, but i stopped when i saw her.

f/n l/n.

she sat down on the concrete outside the gym, her back up against the wall with her bookbag laying beside her. as i looked down at her, i could feel my throat close up.

i hadn't spoken to her since that incident with kageyama after the aoba johsai game. i didn't want to; i didn't have any reason to. i planned to just walk away, but she spoke to me.

"hey, tsukishima-kun."

it took me a second to reply.

"er- hello."

there was a brief silence as she awkwardly glared up at me, and all i could do was just stand there and look back.

"i'm really sorry about how things turned out between us. that whole situation was kind of childish." the girl eventually said, obvious sincerity in her voice. i felt my face heat up with her words.

fuck. my face is probably so red right now.

"it's fine. i don't really care about it anymore."

what a lie.

"oh. well, i'm glad you aren't upset." she smiled that genuine smile, the same one i had fell in love with at the beginning of the school year. it made my heart sink just thinking about how that smile belonged to someone else, and not me.

i need to leave.

"yeah. how are you and kageyama doing?"

what am i doing?

"really great, actually."

why.

"oh. that's cool."

why him.

"i love him, really. i'm so lucky."

why couldn't it have been me.

"cool. well, i have to go now. so, i'll see you around, i guess." i ended the conversation early, not having enough strength to continue speaking to her any longer. y/n waved at me.

"okay, see ya."

i walked away as fast as possible, quickly feeling the sensation of tears stinging my eyes. i clenched my fists angrily as i made my way out of the school campus.

i hated this, so much. i hate how i let that girl control my emotions. i hate being upset over things far out of my control. i hate how she makes me cry, and how she has no idea about it whatsoever. i hate being this weak and vulnerable.

i hate how i lost, and let kageyama be the one to win her over.

especially when i knew i loved her more then he ever would.