I hate/Love you.

chp 33- I Just Want Him.

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Finally the day came when I was going to get married to my dream guy!

Wearing this amazing wedding dress, this jewellery and all is making it all so surreal. My friends are all surrounding me. Giggling and whispering about after wedding issues making me blush now and then. It was time for me to get married.

"Niya, let's go." I heard my bhabhi's voice calling me to go to the marriage hall. Slowly I got up with all my friends following me, giggling while supporting me to walk in the wedding attire. Slowly with the each step I was getting close to the mandap, my brothers- Kartik, Ryan, Nitin, and Veer- were holding the four corner of dupputa for me to pass through it. I was shyly looking down and walking with each step carefully not to fall down. The lengha I was wearing was quite heavy, and with the heavy jewellery, I was wearing was totally not helping it. My, cheery red lengha and golden pink chunari made me shine out. It was really dream attire I always thought to wear. And today I was wearing it.

Finally I was just a step away from the mandap and I upheld my head to look at the groom, to my Arav.

But what I saw took my breath away.

"Arav!!" I screamed looking at a lying body in front of me. His body covered with blood. He was wearing his wedding kurta which was my choice. But I never expected him to be covered in blood. I ran fast towads him kneeling down beside him and immediately took his head in my lap.

"Arav, Arav!! Wake up, wake up. Why are you lying here like this?" I was sobbing with tears rolling down my eyes. I was shaking him hard to wake up but he being the stubborn jerk, wasn't even looking at me. His eyes, still closed, the wound at his heart was pouring out the blood that filled my lengha, I never expected that the cherry red colour I choose for my wedding would have filled with red of his blood.

"Arav, Arav!!" I shouted “help, somebody call the ambulance, mom, dad, ryan....." I desperately looked around for them to help me, but all of them just looked helplessly at me doing nothing.

"Nia, nia... wake up,I'm here. I'm here." Somebody shook me, I looked around to see no one but that voice...that voice ...it was Arav's voice.

"Arav?!" I quickly looked down to him confused cause his eyes were still closed, his lips not moving.

"Nia, open your eyes, I'm right here." And with a jerk I opened my eyes and came face to face with none another than Arav shaking me.

"Arav!" I quickly hugged him staying close to him. "you are alright, thank god you are all right." I hugged him tight sobbing. I looked around I was in my room, it wasn't my wedding, it was just a dream.

"It was just a dream, calm down, just calm down." He soothed my back stroking his hands but I was really very scared.

He pulled me apart looking at me. He cupped my cheeks with his hands, clearing my tears with his thumb.

"Arav, you know it was so real..no it was dream..yes dream ...I dreamt about marriage..you..blood..." I couldn't say more and again hugged him.

"It's all right. I am here, don't worry."

Slowly I compsed myself. I looked around to find myself in my bedroom with Arav next to me. It was still night, slow cool breeze was passing from window .  Though it was quite, but night made me scared till death.

Suddenly I heard the voice of my dad in my mind, about what he said when he knew I married Arav,

" He is an undercover officer, that demands his time and even his life, only God forbid if something happens to him, will you be capable of coping with that situation?"

The dream actually made me realize what my dad said that day.

"Arav," I took his hand in mine as he as still gazing me. His eyes worried. "what I saw in the dream made me realize that how much I'm scared of loosing you. That I can't even imagine anything without you in my life."

"Nia.." before he could say anything I cluched his hand tightly and with a plead in my voice said the words that I couldn't even believe I could say to him one day, "can you leave this job of yours. I don't want you to be a officer that can ... I don't know what I am saying .. sorry....I'm not in right straight of mind  .just understand.. you..aghhh!!"

"Niya, I know how much you are worried about this, but it's all because of this dream. But trust me, you should calm down and think about it."

"But.." before I could say anything I felt his lips on mine claming them. His touch, his presence is all make me feel assured. They make me feel secured. But that uncertainty that I got from the dream was still lingering at back of my mind.

But it all vansined when his lips kissed mine, moving them in rythem, telling me to kiss him back, telling to know that he was still there and nothing is going to happen. And that was all I needed that time, I kissed him back,

His hands found my waist pulling me closer to him while my hand automatically grabbed his hair wanting him to never leave me.

I can never get enough of him, never and that's the main reason I never want him to leave. As the kiss was getting deeper I carved more but before it could get more, Arav pulled back, we were short of breath. I looked at him.

"You are goona my wife, wife of an undercover officer, you can't be sacred, dear. You shouldn't be." He said his eyes closed, again he gave me a soft peak on lips, while our forehead were touching each other. "You know what give me strength whenever I get in trouble?"

"what?"

"You, it's you who get in front of my eyes, smiling and telling me to fight back and that you will be waiting for me. And that make me want to fight back and win soon so that I could see you as early as possible." What he said made me feel something I couldn't even think. This man in front of me was the one who make me feel like this. "So promise me that you won't get scared, that you will always believe that wherever I'm, I will come back to you."

"I will not be scared, I will believe in you" I promised.

He kissed my forehead at last and made me lay down the bed covering me with the duvet. "Just lie beside me." I asked him pulling him down and hugged him tight inhaling his scent again welcoming sleep.
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