Wish to be free

Chapter 19

Jisoo POV

I drove to the park since Ah-In said she'd see him today. Hope she doesn't do anything stupid. Its already 11 now. If she sees his fiancé I am doomed. My car suddenly drove onto something. I stopped the car and opened the door to have a look. It was a mirror. Why is there a mirror in the middle of a highway? I was about to throw the mirror away but just then I looked at the back of the mirror. There was a small transparent pouch at the back of the mirror where you could keep stuff. There was a picture of Ah-In and Jin? why is it here? My eyes suddenly fell on a wheel next to the divider. "Ah-Inahhhh" I shouted hoping she would hear me. My eyes fell on a broken tree. I went towards the place and tried to move the branch. It was too heavy. "Ah-Inahh you in there?" I could see the wheels of an upside down car. "Chogiyooo is someone in there????" I shouted again. I saw Ah-In's phone beside the tree branch. I tried hard to lift it up. I took a crow bar from the back deck of my car. I used it to lift the branch up. After putting all my strength I finally managed to move the branch.

I gasped as I saw Ah-In inside the car. Thank fully she wasn't seriously injured due to the life bags which popped out at the right time. Her car was crushed. I quickly called for an ambulance. Till they came I tried to keep her awake. I tapped her cheeks, "Ah-In wake up. You can't die Ah-In please wake up" I could see her pupils moving though her eyes were closed. "Yes Ah-In come on. Wake up" she slowly opened her eyes. Her eyes were barely open but I was glad that she was awake. "Ah-In don't go back to sleep. Try to be awake" "Unnie" she said weakly "Tell me Ah-In tell me" "Why did you come unnie? Why can't I just die?" "Yah! I said you not to talk like that what the hell is the matter with you?" "Why do people always have to interfere when I am trying to end things. It is too difficult for me unnie" I started crying as I saw tears rolling down her cheeks. "It pains, pains to see that he has moved on. Pains to keep living this horrendous life" "Ah-In you have to be alive. Your life matters. You can't just die like this" She let out a light chuckle, "I have been through worse Unnie" she said as she closed her eyes. "Andweeee Ah-In look at me wake up" I said as I kept tapping her cheeks" I heard the ambulance approach. I waved my hands vigorously as. They stopped and took out a stretcher. 

At the hospital

They took her to the hospital ward and the doctor said that it is lucky that the life bag opened at the right time. I called Jungkook and Tae. I was hesitant whether to call Jin or not. "Jisooyahh what happened?" "That phabo did it again" "Did what?!?!?" "That crazy girl made her car crash in the divider" "Where did she go in the middle of the night?" I looked down as I didn't want to say them that I was the person responsible for this. Jungkook went towards her ward and peeped in. "She looks so weak ohh my gosh" Tae said with a worried expression. "Did you call jin?" "I didn't" "Why not?!?!" "I don't think he should be here" "Call him right now. We need him to see how miserable his decision was" I hesitantly looked at the Number. Jungkook suddenly grabbed my phone  "He is engaged Jungkook" I said as I grabbed the phone from his hand. "Tha punk how can so easily get engaged to someonelse" "Please don't call him. I don't want to sabotage another relationship of his"

 Hours passed and I entered the hospital ward. I held onto her wrist and caressed her knuckles. "Ah-In please just don't hurt yourself like this" I said as I saw her opening her eyes weakly. "Jin?" she said as she grabbed my hands. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she saw me. "Phaboyaaa what you did today is really cruel" I said with a shaky voice. "Ah-In I can't bear seeing you hurt" she lift her hands up and caressed my cheeks. I held her wrist as she did that. 

Jin pov

I felt very weird today. "Oppa shouldn't we go to select our wedding dress" "We can do that some other time crystal" "But our marriage is in a few days so--" "I am just having a heavy headache today I am really sorry" "Ok fine then" I feel really bad for her. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore but I still act totally distant in front of her. I hate myself for being such an ignorant jerk who breaks people's hearts. I sincerely hope she does not love me. I hope she is just pretending to love me. 

I picked up my phone and scrolled through twitter. I suddenly came across an article, "So Ah-In of south Korea wins again" I smiled as I saw it. I went across the comments. They said, "I bet she has gotten a plastic surgery" "Totally, who on earth would look this good" of course people can look beautiful without plastic surgery. How dare you say she has had one. She looks the same from the last time I saw her "She is extremely skinny"  "I am jealous" You should be, she was my girlfriend after all. of course she is pretty. "She is south Korea's pride"  Tears started forming up in my eyes as I started remembering her. I threw the phone to the other side of the bed and looked up at the ceiling. I still remember the day I broke up with her. I hate myself for hurting everyone around me

3 years back

Ah-In you have won!!! wow I said as I hugged her and she got on top of me. Whoaa get off me. "Ah-In please come with me" I heard her coach say angrily. I slowly crept off behind her to hear the conversation. "But sir I promise. He won't affect my carrier. How the hell is this related to what I do?" "I don't know anything. You will have to break up with him and focus on your job" "I can't sir" "What do you mean" "I am sorry I just can't" I quickly hid in a room so that she wouldn't notice me. 

These arguments continued everyday and I could see the frustration on her face. She never slept. She just kept on thinking about things every night. She was clearly exhausted. One day I heard her coach say to break up with me. I thought she would do so and I was ready. She came up to me but she said, "Lets just sleep" she was clearly pressurised. So one day I decided to end it all. 

"Come jin lets go inside" "I need to talk Ah-In" "Lets go inside and talk Jin" "No I wanna talk here" "Ok tell me" "I think we need to break up" Her eyes shot open. "Stop joking around Jin I am tired" "I am serious" "But -but why?" "I hate you" I could see her eyes getting teary. "W-What?" "I said I hate you. I am sick of you and I don't love you anymore" as I said that tears slid down my face. Hope you are hurt by my words Ah-In I am sorry I have to hurt you. But your gonna be miserable if I stay with you. "Y-You hate me?" "Yes, yes I do" As I said that I turned around and began walking away. "You promised" she screamed. "You promised you won't hurt me. You promised you would protect me from the guys out there. You-You promised Jin" I continued walking as tears started flowing from my eyes. "I am going to die" I heard her shout as she ran in the building. As soon as I heard it I followed her. "Ah-In stop!!!" I shouted as she shut the door locking me out. I knocked on the door, "Ah-In open the door" After a few attempts I managed t break the lock. I entered inside and saw her holding a knife in her hands. "Ah-In drop it!" but this time she went snap and her wrist got cut. I saw blood shooting from her hands. She fell on me and I caught her. "Andwee Ah-In You can't die like this I said as I quickly took my phone to call an ambulance. I tore a piece of my dress and covered her wound to stop the bleeding. "Ah-In wake up please"

Present

 I held back my tears. I just can't stay without her. Hope she is happy, hope she isn't pathetic like me. I couldn't hold back my tears now I started crying as I thought about her. "Jinshii how is your headache?" I ignored her and walked to the kitchen"Why are you ignoring me jinshhi?" "I am sorry but I really don't want to talk now" "You always say that. I don't think you like me at all. But I love you" I went towards her and held her wrist. "pleasee don't, don't fall for me. Don't love me please. I don't want to hurt anyone. Don't say that ever again. I don't like to hear it" She flinched as I said that.