Wish to be free

Chapter11

"You? why are you here?" "Aren't you happy to see me?" He came close and offered me his hand. I slapped his hands away and scoffed. "I believe that someone is danger and needs O-ve blood and I have the same blood type" The nurse came towards me and said, "Sir we don't have time. We need it immediately" I nodded my head and said, "You!!! you better repay the rudeness you have shown to me in the past"

____time skip____

I was waiting in the lobby and suddenly heard the door open. "Doctor how is she?" I asked as I pounced up. "Please come inside my cabin. I need to have a talk with you" I was really scared. I went inside his cabin. He told me to take a seat. I sat on the chair in front of his table facing him. "Doctor? is she alright?" "Did you know about her condition?" "Condition? is it her haphephobia? and the frequent panic attacks?" "No besides that" "No doctor" "She has been involved in self harming. There are various scares and bruise on her body. Some of the scars are really deep. Deep enough to kill her but luckily she was able to survive. Her past and trauma has taken control over her mind and she has been harming herself for god knows how long. I think it's been about half a year now. There are various signs of her attempting suicide by consuming sleeping pills and so on. She was able to withstand everything. I request you to take good care of her. Never let her out of your sight so that she never attempts suicide ever again" "My heart started beating fast. S-self harm? I teared up as I heard this. I held it in and said, "Sure doctor thank you so much for saving her. I walked towards her ward. I opened the door which let out a light creak. I was very careful so that I won't wake her up. The sight of her lying on the bed with a bruise on her cheek and all over her body made my heart shake. I went towards her and held her hand which was covered with bruise and scars. I caressed it with my thumb. I suddenly heard someone sliding the door open. I turned around and saw him. "Why are you here?" "Well I saved her so don't I have the rights to come see her?" "Whatever" "I saw her open her eyes. "Seokjinahhh" "I placed my finger on her lips and said, "Shhh don't talk" "She noticed him standing beside me. "Who are you?" she asked with a confused expression on her face. "He smiled and said, "I am jeon jungkook nice to meet you"

She bowed to him and said, "Nice to meet you too" "Now get out Jungkook" "Yah!!! I saved her remember?" "So what?" "So what?!?! what do you mean? You left me 4 years back and you show up now? You saved her and I am thankful tell me what you want I will do it for you, after that You can leave like you did" "Well then I want to stay here" I let out a sigh and said, "Ok but not for long"

Ah-In POV

I wonder who he is. He looks really cute. They both were arguing like kids. I noticed Jin holding my bare hand which had the scars that I had made in the past. I quickly removed my hands from his grip. He looked at me and said, "Are you ok? what is it?" "Y-You saw?" "Saw what?" "T-The scars" He sighed and nodded his head gently. He came closer to me but I moved away. "Go away" I yelled. "Ah-Inahh its ok you are fine" Just go away" I yelled again. "Hyung I think we should go" I heard the Jungkook say. The look in Jin's eyes made me angry. Angry at myself for yelling at him. For pushing him away like I always do. He closed the door and went out. I rushed to the bathroom. I hit my back hit the bathroom door. I held the clothing in the neck of my hospital gown. I slid down the door and sat on the cold bathroom floor. I was ok, The panic attacks had faded away. I never had them for a month. Why all of a sudden? I walked towards the mirror and looked at myself. My eyes fell on the blade kept on the slab of the sink. I took the blade in my hands. I was trying my best to resist. Please stop Ah-Inahhh don't do this. I couldn't control my body. I suddenly heard bangs on the door which made me flinch making the blade fly away from my hand. I did not open the door. I hesitantly held the door knob. "Ah-Inahh open the door don't do anything dangerous" "Go away" I yelled again. Why am I hurting him again and again? "Ah-Inahh listen to me. Take a deep breath in and out" I did as he said. My breath was shaky. Now pat on your chest like you always do" I placed my hands on my chest and held the soft clothing tightly. I began patting on my chest slowly. "Now listen to me Ah-In. You are fine. I said I won't hurt you. I promised didn't I? I will protect you from all the guys out there. I promise Ah-In now please just open the door" I slowly turned the door knob and opened the door slowly. Jin pulled me towards him and hugged me. He cupped my face and turned my gaze towards him. I looked at him staring at his deep brown eyes. He smashed his lips onto mine. At first my eyes grew wide but then I closed my eyes and kissed him back. He moved back as he kissed me and my back hit the wall. He placed one of his arms to the side of the wall trapping me in between and placed the other hand on my waist I held tightly onto his arms. I suddenly heard someone open the door "Jin?" he said and entered without knocking. "Ohhh my" I heard him say as he covered his eyes. We immediately let go of each other and looked at him. "Yahhh!!! Jungkook now you forgot your manners? Didn't you learn to knock?" "I-- uhmm I" He rubbed the back of his neck nervously and let out an awkward laugh. "I think I should go sorry for interrupting" "No stop" I said. There was an awkward silence in the room. The silence was interrupted by a knock on the door. "May I come in?" I heard a familiar voice ask. "Yes" It was Jisoo unnie. She came to me and hugged me tightly. "Omo ottukke? I shouldn't have insisted you to go home. I should've come with you. She cupped my cheeks and examined my face. "Look at those bruise. I feel so bad" I could see tears forming up in her eyes. She hugged me and started crying "Miyanae Ah-Inahh" "It's ok unnie it's not your fault" I said patting on her back. My stomach started paining all of a sudden. "Arghh!!" I let out a frustrated scream. "She pulled away and helped me sit on the bed. 

3 months later

It's the day I get discharged. We reached home and I was sitting in the dinning table. It was not just me Jisoo and Jin but Jungkook was there too. Jin was quiet annoyed with Jungkook but I can feel his love towards Jungkook. I wonder what happened between them.

I sat on the couch after having lunch. Jungkook sat next to me and said, "Your ok now right?" "Yes and by the way thank you so much for saving me" "Well that's ok" "What happened between you two?" "Ahmm long story" I suddenly felt someone sit next to me. I turned to the side and saw Jin sitting next to me. "What are the two of you talking about?" he asked with a suspicious expression" "Ohh she was just asking what happened between the two of us" I hit him on his arm with my elbow and whispered "Yah!!! what's wrong with you?" "Sorry I shouldn't have said it?" he whispered back. Jin looked at me and said, "Well we could tell you what happened between the two of us if your really curious. But on one condition" "What is the condition?" "You should tell us about your past" I looked down at my feet and started fiddling with my fingers. I quickly got up from the couch and I was about to leave but jin suddenly caught me and made me sit down on the couch. He hugged me and said, "You cannot lock it up inside you forever" I sighed and said, "Ok"

(the next episode is about her past so please do read it and thank you for your support😊 )