The Wife

Chapter 17: The Morning After

(Starting where we left off last time)

Beyoncé

I stood up and hugged Kelly. I hugged her super tight. I didn't want to let go ever.

"I missed this" I say.

"I missed you" Kelly said. After a second or so of us not saying anything Kelly let go and kiss me on the lips.

I miss the taste of her lips. "Hmm"

"So what should we do now?" Kelly asked.

I eyed the bed and gave her a look. " I have an idea"

"Wait Solange is right downstairs, shouldn't we tell her about what's going on?" Kelly said.

"Will tell her in the morning" I laughed as I pushed her down on the bed.

The Next Morning.

I woke up and turned towards Kelly. Damn last night was amazing. I sat and looked around for my phone. Shit I left it downstairs. I crept out of bed and hurriedly but quietly put my clothes on. I went into the hall and looked around solo must still be asleep. I slowly came down the stairs and went into the living room.

There it was on the coffee table. "Bey?" I heard someone say. I instantly turned around. It was Solange.  "Uhh?" She was speechless. I mean what do I even say.

"Hey" I smiled trying to make this any less awkward then it already was.

"Good morning" she said suspiciously.

"What's going on?" I heard Kelly say as she walked into the living room where my hoodie that brought over last night.

"That's a really good question" Solange crossed her arms. "You two need to start talking now"

"Umm were back together?" Kelly said sheepishly.

I smirked and went over to Kelly and wrapped my arms around Kelly's waist.

"For real?" Solange asked. We both nodded.

"We  still have some things to work out but yeah I think we're back on track"

"That's great, does that mean your moving back in"

"Only if Kelly wants me to" I said kissing her cheek.

"Uhh. I'm gonna go cheek on Faith" Kelly said as she left out of the room. I followed Kelly upstairs into Faith's nursery.

She pick up Faith from the crib. "Good morning Love"

"Kels you okay?" I ask stepping closer to them.

"Yeah I'm fine. Why?"

I thought about my words for a moment.

"Are you having second thoughts about this, I don't wanna rush you into something your not ready for"

"No it's not that it's just I don't think it's a good idea for you come back home just yet"

"What? Why?"

"I just don't think we're ready for that yet"

I nodded. "Okay, yeah your probably right"

"I'm not pushing you away Bey. I'm just being cautious, like I said last night it's gonna take a while for me to fully trust you again"

"I know I get it" I frowned. So she wants to be together but doesn't want me to come back home again yet.

"So what should we do now?" I ask.

"I think we just need to take it slow, last night was a lot and I need time to process it"

"Kelly if you think this is to much just tell me"

"It's not to much but my heart can't take another heartbreak Bey, I can't do it again and so it's gonna take time and I need you to be patient with me. Please"

"Okay Kelly, whatever you need" I said looking her in the eyes.

"Thank you Bey" she said and leaned in to kiss me on the lips.

"I better get home and get dressed, I have to work soon"

"Okay, uh if you get off work early enough did you wanna come over for dinner tonight"

"Yeah I'd like that"

"Okay" she smiled.

"Okay" I kissed her again and turned to leave

Kelly

Last night was great. I'm glad Bey and I could reconnect and I'm totally on board with getting married but right now we have a lot to do before we can even think about getting married. I don't really know why I said yes. I do wanna be with Beyoncé but I need to be careful. We can't just fall back into our old habits. We need to be careful because I genuinely do not think I can go through this again. I think it's best that we stay separate while we're trying to figure things out.

Maybe we need talk to someone who is unbiased. Couples Counseling maybe? That would be a good idea because clearly we need to work on our communication and we definitely have some other issues that we need to work on. I love Beyoncé and I know I want to be with her but I just can't go into this blind.

I sat down in the rocking chair with Faith and started feeding her.  I closed my eyes. I need to take a minute and relax. 

Would Beyoncé even agree to going to counseling. If she wants to fix this as much as I do then she should want that right? No I'm gonna insist. It's about me right. This is about what I want. She said whatever I need, right? No this is what we both need. It's the only way we can figure this out. We need to both make sure that if this relationship is gonna work we need trust and communication and right now I don't really know how to feel. I feel more confused then anything.