The Wife

Chapter 8:What She Doesn't Know

THAT SAME DAY

Kelly

I can't believe Beyoncé said that. It really hurt me to know that the love of my life thinks that I don't think things through and that I just act on impulse.

I walked into faiths nursery and I could see she was awake. She was wrapped in her swaddle wrap blanket.

"Hey baby" I held the back of her head with one hand and held her butt with the other and lifted her up.

I sat down in the rocking chair next to her crib. Yes I didn't plan on having faith but I thought her through every step of the way.

Flashback (11 months ago)

I sat on the closed toilet seat holding the pregnancy test in my hand. Praying that I wasn't pregnant. I was prepared for this. What am I gonna do? It was positive. Fuck I'm screwed.

How was I gonna tell Tim? We haven't even been dating that long, a year and 4 months. Does this mean we have to get married? I don't even know how he's gonna feel about this.

Present.

I unwrapped her swaddle blanket and carried her over to the changing table. She stretched out. I laughed lightly. After changing her diaper I brought her downstairs. When I saw Beyoncé watching TV on the couch. I instantly was annoyed.

She looked over a me and saw me holding Faith. I set Faith in her swing and sat down on the opposite side of the couch from Beyoncé.

She sighed. "Actually I think I'm gonna go run some errands, I'll be back later" she said getting up.

I didn't even make eye contact with her. "Kay"

She walked passed me and kneeled down in front of Faith's  swing. "I'll see you later baby Girl" she cooed to Faith and Faith smiled back.

She didn't say a word to me and walked out.

Beyoncé

I didn't even know where I was going but I had to just get out there. I know I was wrong for what I said but I'm not gonna go into something that we're not ready for. Kelly is being irrational and not thinking things through. We need to plan these things. She's so focused on the future that we don't even know what we're doing now.

I found myself pulling up to Shawn's house. I noticed that Kayla's car wasn't there. I knocked on his door.

After a few minutes of me waiting he opened the door.

"Beyoncé what are you doing here?" He asked stunned to see me.

"Can I come in?" I asked.

"Sure"

We walked into Shawn's living room and we talked for what seemed like hours. He's still my friend and always will be. We laughed and drank and laughed.

"So how are you and Kayla doing?"

A couple of months after Kayla's procedure. I got news that she was pregnant I'm really happy for them.

"We're good. She's 4 months along now" he smiled. I could tell he was happy.

"I'm really happy for you Shawn, I know you've always wanted a family" I said

"Yeah I'd always thought it be with you though"

I blushed. "Funny how life turns out"

"YeahL he nodded. " I love Kayla she's everything I could ask for in a wife"

"And I'm sure you're a great husband" I commented setting my glass down on the coffee table.

"Where is Kayla anyway?" I asked.

"She left to go visit her sister for a couple of days" he replied.

"And you didn't go with her" I raised one eye brow.

"Nah she said something about needing time with her sister"

"Oh"

"Yeah" He put his hand on my thigh. " You doing alright B?"

"Yeah I just Um—" I looked him in the eyes. Beyoncé! No don't even think about it. He's a married man.

Your a little drunk and a little vulnerable. Tread lightly.

I leaned over and kissed him right on this lips. I held the side of his face. He grabbed my wrist and lightly pulled away.

"Shawn I'm so sorry I didn't mean—" and he pulled me closer and passionately kissed me. I can't believe we're doing this. Oh god we're doing this. Next thing I know is we ended up in his bed. His marriage bed. This isn't you. Go home.

Thank god he wore a condom.

I can't believe I just did that. "I have to go!" I jumped out of bed. I was starting to sober up and realize what I had just down. I slept with Shawn. Kelly was going to kill me like actually kill me.

I ran out that house so fast. I hadn't realized I had been gone half of the day.

I drove home and pulled into the driveway. The lights in the house were all on.

I'm already in the dog house and now I just dug a deeper hole. I tried to make myself look presentable.

I walked in the house trying to act casual. I already knew Kelly was still probably not talking to me so I guess I don't have to explain everything to her right now.

I trudged into the living room and laid on the couch. My head was pounding. I'm never drinking again.

"Bey your home" I heard Kelly's voice say. I sat straight up trying to compose myself.

"Yeah" I said.

"I think Faith Missed you" she says without really looking at me. "But she's sleeping now"

"You we're running errands all day?" She asked suspiciously. " Beyonce it's almost 8:30 at night"

"I was running errands. Why does it matter? You didn't seem to care earlier" I said defensively.

" I was worried about you okay!" She snapped.

"I had some stuff to take care of, it's not a big deal"

"You sure, you seem shaky" she said eyeing me.

"Yeah I'm good" I nodded. I stood up. "Kelly I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said earlier, I shouldn't have brought up Faith" I said looking her in the eyes.

She walked towards me. "I'm sorry to, you we're right, not about what you said but you were right about us taking one step at a time" I took her hand into mine. "Beyoncé I love you and I just want to hurry up and start our life together"

I smiled. I felt awful now. "I love you too" she kissed my cheek.