✓monthly boyfriend • minsung

🌹eleven

i feel guilty for leaving you hanging so i'll try to finish this but it will take a few months :<

Jisung's pov

Screw it, I feel so guilty.

"You shouldn't let her bring you down, Jisung," Felix sighed after hearing my story. He leaned his back on the wall and stared at the vending machine in front of us. "That.. will make it worse."

I just nodded my head lightly, trying to calm myself first.

"I know it's going to be awkward to talk to him after three days. But just clear things up. You're hurt but again think about his feelings too. Sure, there's no sweet feelings attached but at least think about it as a friend. I'd be hurt too if you suddenly ignored me." his deep voice laced with sadness. I was about to ask something but the door of the room section opened. Felix bid me goodbye and walked away.

"You're not gonna wait for Changbin?"

"I have another class so no." he replied before taking the left turn.

If he had a class then why did he wait here with me? Was he avoiding him?

I shook my head lightly and waited until Minho came out. Indeed, he was the last person with Changbin but as soon as the other guy saw me, he left.

My chest tighten when Minho gave me an unusual look.

Come on, Jisung. Speak.

He waited for me to speak and I was grateful for that. "Hyung.. can we talk?"

"Sure." he muttered and we began to walk to our dormitories. It was silent at first but then I realised I had to say something.

Also, he didn't hold my hand like usual.

Of course he wouldn't do that you idiot.

"That day.. I heard the woman said something. That's why I acted like that." I finally said after a minute of keeping quiet.

Minho heaved a small sigh as he tightened the grip on his bag. "I heard that too," he did? "But ignoring my messages is not the best way to cope with the situation."

Uh, my bad.

"If you're anxious or worried we could talk," he paused for a moment before continuing with a slower voice. "After all, that's the reason why we date."

A group of girls walked past us. "Hi Minho, hi Jisung!" they greeted us and when I waved back they giggled.

"They're so cute."

My cheeks heat up.

Minho smiled a bit, "See? Most students are supporting us so there's no reason to be afraid about it."

He was right. I'm just overreacting.

"I'm so sorry. Did I hurt you?"

He chuckled lightly, "If I were to be honest, yes. But this is normal in any kind of relationship. Whether it is fake or not, I'm glad you decided to talk to me."

"Of course, I don't want to lose you."

He finally reached for my hand which made me smile, "Me too Jisung."

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Minho's pov

When I said that, I really meant it. I never want to lose him, but I know someday I will.

Chan had warned me about this but I sticked with my decision. He gave up and just supported me. Sometimes I wished I listened to him but most of the times, no. I'm happy with who I am now.

Even it was just a fake dating.

I know he sees this nothing more than a serious relationship, neither do I but I silently hoped he will see it as that.

I liked Jisung for awhile now. Ever since I saw him a few months ago we constantly bumped onto each other but he never realised that. Not until the day he gave me my wallet.

However, I was sure he was going to forget me so I approached him at the library. Honestly, that was one of the nervous moments I had in my life. And offering to be his boyfriend was the boldest thing I have ever done. Actually I've been prepared to say that to him because he said it out loud at the dining hall the other night.

He's undeniably loud.

I'm quite afraid of what will happen after this. After these two months end I will be moving to the main campus and he would probably sees me only as a friend.

I don't want that, but I cannot force him either.

If only I was brave enough to tell him what I really feel..

"Minho, when are you going to bed?" Yeosang's voice greeted my ears. I looked at the time.

"Maybe in an hour."

"Wake me up in forty minutes. I still need to finish the homework."

I nodded and he switched off his study lamp. Only mine and Chan were switched on. Even there was only a person who's asleep we did not use the main lights because it was already nighttime. Time for bed.

We only lived as three in this room. The other compartment was empty so sometimes we would throw our unwashed outfits there before bringing them to laundry. But three people are enough for me. I don't need another friend as they always disappoint me.

jisung<3: goodnight hyunggg

A smile appeared on my face. Do I really need to be surprised at this point? This kid is confusing. Some times he would be loud and some times he would ignore me. But he never missed any goodnight wishes — except for the three nights where he completely ignored me — and that just make it hard for me to break up with him in the future. I need someone like that.

Someone like Jisung, but he was one in a million.

To whoever becomes his partner in the future, I envy you. So much.

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