✓monthly boyfriend • minsung

for min♡

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Alright, first of all, I don't get horny that fast. You just teased me too much so let's put that behind us.

Second, how cute can you get? No wonder they call you the soft spoken hot engineering senior. I didn't expect for this, that you write literally everything about us in this book. I'm touched, really. I didn't even do anything.

After reading everything I realised how whipped you are towards me. That's cuter. More cuter. Call me an English student but I will use more cuter to describe how adorable you are. Your actions, your laugh, when you're mad, your face, everything. Everything about you is enough to make me get over heels for you. You, are my happiness. The light that shines bright in my dark side.

Does that answer your questions?

Am I proud of you? Yes, yes I am. I told you this countless times and I want to say it again. I am VERY proud of you. You managed to get through all of these problems after years of fighting it. You are curing, and I can't be more grateful.

What did I see in you? You don't like yourself? Hyungie, I see that you're brave. You're brave enough to approach me — your crush — to have drinks and volunteer to be a fake boyfriend. People would call it weird and rushing, but if I were you, I wouldn't dare to do that. I'm surprised when knowing you liked me even before we met. The courage is just... wow. What if I reject you that day? Did you think of that? Of course you did, but you still come up to meet me.

You are brave for making our relationship public. You did not hesitate to hug me in front of other students and did not care if people talk bad about you, about us being boyfriends. It seems like you're ready for it. I would never. I know I tweeted that on twitter but most students found it as a joke.

You are brave for telling your dad you like a guy, and you are even more when you stood up for yourself in front of your mom. Not many people can do that hyung, you know that?

You're strong, you really are. Now tell me, how many people know your problems? Only your roommates and the nurse right? You managed to hold it in. You only have two friends to show your other side. You've been holding on for too long and you still can. Even you were breaking inside you still have the outer shell to protect yourself. And the outer shell was you, did you realise that? You were the one who build them. You were the one who supports yourself when you feel like you're alone, when you feel like falling down.

With me beside you now I'm sure we can do this <3

You're clever, hyung. Don't say you are not. We don't have any same subjects but we've studied together and I saw you. You've learned some of my syllabus a few months back and you still remember it. Whenever I'm stuck with the programming subject you'd help. I'm a bit slow when it comes to calculating but you taught me with patience. Minho hyung should have registered to be my programming teacher instead of the current lecturer though. I didn't understand a thing :(

Professor Lee sounds hot :>

Min, you're hardworking. I know you don't sleep well because you're studying at night. Though it's not good for you to do that often, that also shows how determined you are to pass all of the quizzes, assignments and exams.

Even you're busy studying you still find times to spend with me. You still lend me your shoulders when I need it, your ears when my mouth won't stop blabbering, and your money for the hot chocolates oops. I'm amazed of how you manage that. I told you a few times you don't have to come when you're studying but you still did, you even brought the books sometimes and did your work next to me. We didn't talk if you bring your books but our companies complete each other. I don't care if I don't get to rant. As long as you're with me I feel calm already.

Do I need to list it down more? I think you are coming home shortly. Damn what are you doing outside? You took so long. I'm starting to miss you in this cold room.

And hyung, let's do a duet together one day. I've already put that in my to-do-list. Your voice are soothing, you should sing more.

So, Lee Minho, I want to thank you as well for being my rant buddy and fake boyfriend, and now, my first real boyfriend. I hope you will be my last too. I hope that you will forever be my soulmate and I'll forever be yours. We still have a long journey to go so don't give up easily. Remember what I said, if you ever need anything just reach the phone, and call me. I'm not your boyfriend for nothing. I'm here to help you and we'll help each other, okay? I love you so much, so please hold on longer. I will do the same too.

We might have another ups and downs, bitter and sweet. But let's promise one thing, a promise that we won't break easily. Promise that we will always have each others' back, and talk when we feel something is wrong. Without communication everything will go sideways.

I think I heard the gate opening so I will stop here :)

— your cutest boyfriend, jisung

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question!

do you want me to update the last chapter tonight or tomorrow?

it's 17:21 now btw :3